Has anyones mental attitude changed
Or is it just me. I feel more change on the inside than the outside. I am just so satisified and proud of myself. I am happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What is the deal with this. I sing and dance
now. Something I haven't wanted to do in years. Not something I couldn't do but didn't feel the need to do. I laugh alot more
I like this feeling.


Funny you asked this. I was just talking to my husband while we were out tonight and I was telling him on how I feel different. Before I would walk into Walmart and first think, everyone's looking at me because I am fat and tey are staring. Now I walk into the grocery store and I don't even think about what others are thinking of me. I just think about what I need to get etc. I was getting to the point where I was so bad I was having panick attacks no matter where I went, especially if I was with my husband and he walked away from me. It was getting really bad. Last night I went to the grocery store by myself (ALL BY MYSELF) and not for one second did I think of anything but the milk and snack (for the baby) I needed to buy. It feels good to finally not be in fear of what everyone else thinks about me. I find I am happier, I smile more and I feel so much better about me.
Shannon

I think my pre-surgery low self-esteem is on the mend. I had so much guilt about having the surgery because I could not give or be there for my familiy, boss and friends if they needed me. I was one of those persons who thought about everyone elses needs.
I hated asking anyone for help, always felt that I had to carry everyones elses burden, I would feel like I didn't didn't deserve anything or if I got any hint of love or kindess, I only got it because they felt sorry for me.
I struggled with finally doing something for ME!! Now, I know that I have done the right thing by having this surgery and know that life will get so much better and so will my Self esteem.
Yes, I feel so good about me. I don't look much different, but in time I will.
so, so happy.
Best wishes to you Vickie






It is funny because my fiance who was not happy about me doing the surgery says now that he sees nothing but positive since I have had the surgery. He says I'm so happy now and calls me bubbly. I feel happy because I'm excited about my adventure in seeing what I really look like. I am down 50 pounds since July when I started preparing for surgery and 25 pounds since surgery on September 7th. This is enough to keep me happy! On a side note, I feel less and less inclined to take crap from people after going through this. I keep hearing how some people are approached and told that they cheated by having the surgery and when someone says that to me, they will get an earfull!
