two weeks down and a lifetime to go.

I read my replies and posted a message to myself. I guess I am still learning to navigate through the web site. In any case I just wanted to say thank you for all your support and replies. When I posted the message earlier I was talking about how I feel. And on Monday it was officially two weeks which allowed me to add regularly cooked meat instead of the pureed. I only ate the pureed meat a few times because I could not handle it. Meat is not one of my favorite things to begin with and having pureed was just too much for me. So now I am able to have it cooked regularly and so far I am sticking with chicken. I think about the way I used to eat and think I would never be able to eat that way now. How painful would that be!!! So I keep in mind how good I feel now just by eating healthy, my commitment to my new lifestyle and just how good I will look this time next year. I was thinking about cleaning out my closet from all my summer clothes and I was telling my friend, who also had the surgery, that I was nervous about getting rid of all of them and she told me "Tara just get rid of them because your not gonna need them." Its a scary thought but an exciting one. I was watching a show today, Starting Over, which has a woman on it that had gastric bypass and while I am watching the show I was thinking about my own life and realized that there was always the comfort there of being the fat person and now I am going to be creating a whole new identity for myself. I know there has been this person living inside of me my whole life and I can't wait to see it.

It sounds like your doing pretty good. 2 weeks out and you already get to eat regualr food, that's pretty cool. I have just been allowed to do the pureed and so far everything sucks. I tried ham and then chicken and both taste gross to me. I really can't wait until I just have to cut it up. I think everything will taste better. Tomorrow I am giving tuna try. If I can't hack that then I am sticking with chili for a while. Take care Shannon