Surgery 09-15-2004 and I'm scared!!

I am having Lap RNY in two days (9/1). I feel exactly the same way! One minute I am so excited and the next I am asking myself what have I gotten myself into. Today is the first of a two day fast and aggressive bowel prep. Joy, joy! But at the end of every doubtful thought I remind myself of the big picture. I goal that I am working for. The vision of me attaining the ultimate goal. That's when I say YES it is all worth it and I am worth it. Hang in there, you are not alone.

Well, you can add me to the list! I am scheduled for a RNY-Lap on 9/23 and it seems like that is all I think about. At first my fear was of dying during surgery from a blood clot, stroke or something, but I think that is because my Dad recently died from a stroke. Now my fear is of severe or longterm complications...or even nausea everyday for the rest of my life! Although I have just started posting, I have read profiles here for a couple of years and know that there are FAR more successes than failures and most who have had complications still would do it again! My suggestion to you, and what I have found is helping me, is to take the time to post here and provide support to others. I find I gain strength by helping others and I know how much I appreciate the comments and inspiration from others. Hang in there....the best is yet to come! DJ