5 1/2 months, 24 weeks out.... Ack!!!

I am down 111 lbs. down. My surgery was 9/12. It will be 24 weeks on 2/27. I am really worried because now I am at the weight I was when I'd lost 100 lbs. 3 years ago and I never got lower than this. I know it's a lot of psychological issues with this fear but I can't help feeling it. I work out 4-5x a week before work, go to a ball class 1x a week after work and occassionally do an ab class after work.... I am working out like a fiend and yet still this fear persists that I will not lose any more than what I have. Part of that fear is that I've been stuck in this same 10 lbs. realm for over a month. I HATE plateaus. Also, I am finding I can eat more which is waaaay scary. It's like the free pass of eating tiny amounts of whatever was tolerated is over because the tiny amounts are converting into bigger amounts which means now I have to watch what I eat and actually start changing my eating habits that I intellectually knew I had to do but hadn't yet needed to do it. I've not dumped and I find I can eat fried foods and my downfall CHIPS (all kinds) and I am apparently able to tolerate small candies since i ate them and didn't get sick... so that's all kinds of scary. I have to now put the reins on myself and I just hope that I can... that's not to say that I'm eating like crazy but the potential to do so as my stomach gets naturally bigger ... well... the potential's there. So, here's my stats: b-day: Sept. 22nd, 30 yrs. old height: 5'11" (six foot with heels) weight: pre-op: 350 currently: 239 goal: 180 (at least) Inches lost: 61

I had my surgery 9/17 and I think you are doing fabulous! I started at 360 and have only lost 83 pounds. I go to the gym 5 times a week also. Like you, I can also eat most anything. I am sticking to the hope that my little stomach wont let me get back to the old habits. Even if I get freaked out & eat oreos, I can only eat 3 or 4 not 2 bags, so thats gotta do something right? It is terribly scary to hear of so many people who cant tolerate sugar or who can only mange one or two bites of food at a time..makes you think "why not me". I know that I was most looking forward to not being able to tolerate sugars because I have never been a huge eater except for when it came to desserts. I could be so stuffed from food that I felt like I would explode but let dessert be mentioned and all of a sudden I had room. I never understood that. It was almost like I had 2 stomaches. Maybe the surgeon forgot to bypass them both. Like I said before I think you are doing great and now I am jealous Best of luck Diana Bday 5/5/68 age 35 height 5'11" preop weight 360 current 277 goal 200 (I think) inches lost 47.25

Hey Diana! Thanks so much. It's great to see another tall girl gettin' supermodel slim! I too wish I couldn't tolerate sugar... did my doc do this bypass after alll? hehehe JK. It's just all mental... Once I'm passed this weight area I'm sure my craziness will pass. I know I am doing exceptionally well and I don't dismiss that.... it's just me getting caught up in past fears. Thanks again!

I too am finding that I am able to eat more, and I am always worrying about overeating or stretching my pouch. Will the feelings of defeat ever leave us? I also can eat anything really. Some things make me feel nauseated a little but nothing major, I have yet to throw up since the surgery, and sometimes I think that is good, other times a curse. No food scares me!! I liked it before when we weren't hungry, didnt really crave much, didnt eat much. Now it is like that person with the bad habits is lurking in the shadows. So I am always afraid this loss is a short term dream. I am impressed with your workout schedule. Keep up the good work. Cathy Cutler

It's comforting to know I'm not alone in these fears. I am trying to now "watch" what I am eating, but don't you know I go to a tupperware demonstration and they have brownies there... beckoning to me.... and I submitted... I was only going to have a piece of one, but one little piece turned into eating the whole brownie... darn it all!!!! It's going to be hard, for sure. Thanks for your response, Cathy!

Hi! I, too, had surgey in September 2003 and I have loss 110 lb. I feel good! I am able to eat a lot of things, but white meat chicken and beef give me problems. I haven't been wroking out because my back is stll give giving me problems. I am going to PT and will be able ro exercise as soon as the theraoist releases me. I have never dumped. I can eat sugar and fats and I don't feel anything. This is why I have to be very careful. I am watching everything that goes in my mouth. Also, I can eat much more, now. I am aware of this and I am careful to not eat too much food. I stop before I'm satisfied and some days I am hungry. I'm so afraid of stretching out my pouch. There were two girls in the doctors office, when I was there, today, that were asking for revisions. That won't ever be me. Peace and Blessings,