My surgery was.....Sorry for venting too......

Rescheduled for August 28th. My date used to be 7/17, but my labs were out of whack, and the post-poned surgery to get my numbers back on track. My Hemoglobin is 8 and supposed to be 12, so I am on Iron and Vitamin C for Iron Absorbtion, and I have to take a test for my Thyroid and see what medicines can help me get it back to normal. The funny thing is, I had lab work drawn in March 06 and Dec. 05 and the numbers were fine. My PCP said that my numbers were great for the weight that I was carrying. I try to take care of myself, even though I am FAT and don't want to care. I have been dieting and exercising for the last 7 months, I have lost 47lbs Pre-op to better my chances for a Laproscopic surgery and I have jumped through every hoop that they could find. All went well with that, but my body decided to go the other way. My family and extended family has tried to get me to change my mind about WLS, and they are supportive, but not supportive enough. Every chance they get, they have something smart to say about me and WLS, but they say the right things when we get to the surgeons office. If I did not know better, I think that my family is praying against me so that I can't have the surgery. When I told them that I was rescheduled, My mother said, What? August 28th, thats not long enough, they should have rescheduled you in Oct. or Nov. Not "That to far away, another month" but she said "That not far enough out". I was hurt and left the room and cried. She hurt my feelings bad. It seems she wants me to stay FAT with her. This makes me feel that she is praying against me and not with me. I had gotten my son to understand, and support me, but he is back at point A, saying that I do not need this surgery. I am basicly ALONE in the journey, and this is probably why, I am having a hard time having my surgery. To much STRESS, can ruin a lot of things and it shows in your body. I am just going to calm down, and think of whats best for me. I know that they are scared and don't want anything to happen to me. But I have confidence in GOD first and then the surgeon. My surgeon has had NO,none, nand, zelch, deaths from WLS, but his co-worker surgeons had 1 death in the 4 years they have been doing this surgery, and that person died because she was not taking her supplements and stuff. So I know that I will pull through this with flying colors. Now to get my body to understand this too, my mind does. Thanks for listening to me vent....This post was not meant for venting, but it just happened. Thanks again, and Stay Blessed..... Nissah 360/313/???/180's here I come 47 days to go and counting

Nissah, I am sorry to hear that your date was changed but now we share the same date for surgery!..Mine is August 28 also! God has this all in his control, everything happens for a reason. I do understand your feeling alone when your family is acting that way. I have a few family members that feel the same way..and I cannot worry about them. I am doing this for me, and my health. I know God has given us this great tool to help us with our problem of obesity. What God has for you...is for you. I will be praying for you, surgery buddy. We will make it to the losing side! "I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me" Phil 4:13

((((((((((Nissah)))))))))))) I am so sorry your surgery was rescheduled - but your doctors are just being safe so that you can go into this with the best possible outcome! I am with you that EVERYTHING happens for a reason and God is watching over you I am sorry you do not have the family support you hoped for - but maybe this will give them a bit more time think about the POSITIVE effect this surgery will have and jump on board with you. if not - this is something we do for OURSELVES - maybe for the first time in our life we are thinking about ourselves. We are here to support you and wish you much luck in your journey!

Hey Nissah! Sorry about your date being rescheduled and I truly understand your feeling about it but just know that God knows best and so do the doctors. I was devastated in March 2006 when my surgery at another hospital got cancelled totally, but now I know that it was for my good, that God had better for me, a top surgeon, new hospital, and a greater understanding of me and my decisions. You are right also about stress making your Lab numbers out of whack or slightly different, but hang in there "Don't Worry, Be Happy" and know there are lots of us who understand and will be praying for you and for your family to come through with their support. While we want our family support, this is just for us to be and feel better. Praying for you and I still have some family members that don't quite understand yet, but will later when they see the new healthier me. So hang in there girl before you know it August 28th will be here hoooorayy Barb T. in KC.

Dear Nissah, I know you feel alone, but we are all here for you, before , during and after. Get on here every day. My prayers are WITH YOU! When my daughter had her surgery, open RYN 3 years ago. I was so afraid. but I knew she is smart and she researched it, is in the medical field, and went with her husband 5 hours away from me and had it done. She lost her diabetes in 2 days, she is a new person. Sure I was afraid for her but she knew best, and I prayed. Your family is just afraid for you ,they are reacting out of fear and maybe jealosy too. Take them to a support group in your area. and you go too. Don't be sorry to vent here .. this is what it's for girl! Take Care Patti

Nissah, Just a few words of encouragement with God All Things Are Possible. Walk by faith and not sight no matter what. In due time your family members will come around. Remember this to shall pass. May God Bless you in every way. Grace and Peace Nicola

Hi Nissa, I know how it feels to be dissapointed and having to wait, right now I'm feeling real depressed, because I was denied the first time around now waiting for my approval going through the Neweigh Program in Houston, I have Aetna POS and have completed everything they have asked me to. Just want to tell you to count your blessing I'm just waiting for my approval at least you have yours and a date, I'm still waiting on both. I'm want this surgery so bad, don't look at how long your wait is just know that its coming and its going to happen and change your outlook and life forever, I wish I just knew I was approved the rest is easy.Keep your head up and count your blessing. I feel so alone and unloved. I am not writing you to cry about my problems just wanted to tell you thank God for positives in your life and don't focus on the negative. I'm happy for you good luck time will pass before you know it. Keep God first.

Nissa, here is what God's word says about us: You are blessed coming in and going out. You are the head and not the tail. You are always above and never beneath. God has given you favor in the eys of everyone who beholds you and has caused you to excel at everhting you set your hand to. God has given his angels charge over you to bear you up with their hands lest you dash your foot against a stone. He has caused his angels to encamp round about you. No weapon formed against you shall prosper (wrong prayers against you having surgery). God watches over his Word to perform it and sees to it that it accomplishes that which He sent it forth to accomplish. Girl, you are blessed! Go in peace!

Nissah, gosh you have really had alot to deal with. That is just sad bout your wls being rescheduled over a month away. BUT... think of this, your body will be more prepared for the wls with all the blood tests at a safer level. YOu are so right that your mom is feeling and already seeing the changes in you and she offcourse will fill threatened with change in something that she is so connected to both physically and emotionally. I am so proud of you! sending you a big hug... Aunt Pam

Hi Nissah, Sorry for the lack of support from your family. That is hard to have no one supporting you. I have told friends that I know will support me and also my family. Everyone says...you don't need the surgery, but they don't understand the pain and discomfort I feel everyday. One co-worker said...have you really ever tried to loose weight...now what kind of statement is that....no I just decided to have this surgery for the heck of it!!! Take your iron and Vitamin C.....the 28th will come really fast! WE share the same date as well! Hugs, Traci