Big Changes...

Oh Rita, I know you weren't. I just wanted to explain myself better. Fuggetaboutit! Boys will be boys unfortunately! We can just sit there feeling smug that we are in control of THAT situation! *snaps* Lori

Hi Bridget, What you are going through was my greatest fear for myself. However, I have remained the same person that I have alwaysed loved in my inner being. I have always been fat and that part of life hurt, but the inside me is wonderful and I love her to pieces. For the first time the yesterday, I had a friend tell me I was attractive. I still can't see that even in the mirror today. I do have beautiful eyes, but we see ourselves so different then others do. It really took me by surprise and I thanked her for the compliment. I enjoy the compliments because they help me to look at myself differently then I see myself. I don't think of it at conceit because I still have a very hard time thinking that I'm attractive, but her saying it begins to change my heart and mind to accept it. I've been doing a lot of work on myself lately to appreciate peoples compliments instead of seeing as wasn't I good enough before the surgery. I think it is because I accepted inside self, but ignored the outer me because I didn't see a way to change it and just accepted that part of my life. I am happy with myself now and I was happy at 260 as well. I wasn't happy at 293 and that's why I did the surgery. So, I hope that you feel differently about those who compliment you now and see the attention in a differnt frame of mind. It's all in our perception, people can be hurtful if they want, I choose to see things from a differnt perceptive. Take care, Lori 293/206/135/130

Hi Bridget, Yeah... I'm not the only one who's getting 'tired' of hearing how different I look or some such. It seems to be the only topic people can have with me any more. It's not that I don't like a compliment, but non-stop is starting to grate. Be careful though about not thinking your personality has changed. Would you have decided to uproot and relocate to DC before? That takes a lot of guts and self-confidence that a lot of us didn't have 8-9 months ago. The basis of who we are is the same, but it's like we're all a little drunk and our inhibitions are gone so our inner 'wild woman' is a lot more visible. I think that's the difference a lot of folks see. That 'spark' or 'signal' that makes people stop and notice some people as soon as they enter the room - regardless of what they look like or who they are - is also starting to be projected by us. Kinda cool isn't it? Anyway... I hope your new dreams come through and I think you'll be a great nurse... you may even want to specialize in bariatric care. You have the right perspective now and with it becoming a more and more common surgery, good programs will want those specialized nurses. Dawn 258/139/135

I am posting to this thread a bit late. I went to Staples the other day and every male in the store asked me if I needed help. I have gone to this same store FAT and not a one asked me if I needed help. To me a customer is a customer and should not matter how much they weigh or how they look. Diana 263/165/135