What is wrong with me, I need to talk to a professional......

I ate potato chips, tortilla chips, fried chicken and 1/2 spring roll yesterday. Although I had very small amounts, I'm feeling really bad and crying because I'm not sure if I can make the change in diet. I'm weak for food and don't know what to do. Just realizing, I need professional help!!!!!! I've lost 45 lbs so far, and I'm back on my plan today. But, I can not continue with days like yesterday. Just crying!!! Thanks for listening. Kim 8/1/05 259/210/150

Kim, There is nothing wrong with seeking professional help. Lots of people who have this surgery do need professional help. It is a huge change in lifestyle and eating habits that we have had for years. Don't eat yourself up, just get back on that horse and ride into the sunset. I too have eaten a few chips or a cookie, but I know that I can't go back to my old ways, it's just not a possibility. I hate vomitting too( I know everyone hates it but I HATE it LOL) Hope you are feeling better about things Keep up the good work, you have done well with the weight loss E-mail me if you want We had our surgery the same date Take care Joyce

Yesterday I felt I overdid it too, and I'm getting back on the proverbial horse today right along with ya! By the time I ate dinner last night I was physically ill, I know I put too much in me too quick. Nothing got stuck, so I spent an hour feeling like crap-ola. This was on top of the fact that I'd 'grazed' off and on all afternoon. Big NO NO! Try not to let days like those get you too down, we all do it I think. Today is a new day, and we can do better than we did yesterday! Hugs ~ Connie 269/213(and STUCK there)/163 surgeon's goal

Joyce - " don't eat yourself up over it" - funny!! I know what you meant to say. funny though! I know you guys are right. Boy, I pity the person who thinks this is easy. The tool is just a tool. You have to tweak it, play with it and work with it. I need to visit my nut, and get into counseling. Life's problems are always going to be there and I have to find a way to deal w/o eating myself to death. One day at a time.........I'll kick this thing, but I'm just so down. I can't stop thinking about food. My husband is a Marine and is home all the time. He eats like a pig and It's is so difficult around him. Yesterday he wanted to go to breakfast. I told him NO!! I can't take watching him and my son eating those huge portions of pancakes, french toast, potato's and staring at my one egg w/ 1/2 toast. It's a pain sitting through dinner out and watching someone else gorge. I HATE IT!!

:&:That really was a Freudian slip, I meant to say BEAT yourself up LOL. That is too funny. Joyce

Hi Kim. I understand how you feel. It wasn't until after surgery that I realized that I was a food addict and I had to get professional help with it myself. I was extremely depressed for the first month. I don't really make that many bad food choices now, but it happens and its hard to fight the temptation because I am such an emotional eater. I just remember my goal and I know that making poor choices isn't the way to reach it. However, at some point, ALL of us are going to have bad days just like you did. You are doing great and will continue

Hi, Kim... You and I are so much alike...our stats are very similar as well as our surgeries date only one week apart.. And I too have been "overdoing it in eating department for the last few weeks or so.... and stalling in weight loss for very same amount of time... I can't say that it's my family's eating that gets me hungry.... not really... but it's the fact that I can tolerate more food now (types and amounts)...I realize that doing it has it consequences.... and yet do it anyway' cause my hunger is almost back, and no longer 1/2 cup of plain water feels like 2 bowls of clam chowder in my pouch... ...I'm certainly making my support group meeting tomorrow..I too need help from this self-sabotage. take care, keep me posted, Rita.

Hey Kim, I think we're all in the same boat here. I found myself grazing all weekend! I'm still having a lot of difficulties with food so I keep experimenting with small amounts here and there...which adds up to all day grazing. I'm not really hungry but I am not satisfied. I'm still struggling with food and have been bumped back to puree for at least a week while my surgeon figures out what to do. I've been scoped but am going to request to be rescoped because I really think I have a stricture. Anyway...I was in therapy before the surgery and I think it's time to give her a call. She's a 'relapse prevention therapist' who specializes in all types of addictions. The cravings for something satisfying are driving me crazy! Let's all stick together here and we'll get through it. It's nice to know I wasnt the only one who fell off the wagon this weekend Toni

Hi Kim, You are not alone, unfortunately we have this new pouch and this old mind!!!!!! I have been struggling with making bad choices and "falling off the wagon" but I'm gonna keep getting back up and trying again, I'll keep doing it until I get it right!!!!!!! Yesterday is gone today is a new day!!!!!! Don't beat yourself up girl, just get back up and try again!!!!!!!!!! Love, MZ