Trying not to panic before surgery on the 8th.

This waiting game is killing me. I'm trying not to loose it but it is tough. For some reason I am extremely emotional and feeling like I want to stick close to my family the next few days. The thought keeps entering my head that I hope I am not in my last days. Sick I know, but real feelings.

i know what you mean. but i am also on such an emotional roller coaster that i am a bit cranky so my kids are also driving my nuts. it seem to be a no win situation. in my head i want to make a great lasting emory just in case but i know that is not going to happen by buying the something.

My kids are driving me a little nuts too which makes me even more emotional. Good luck on your surgery and thanks for writing me.

arlene, you are not alone i actually wrote letters to all three of my son's and my husband to be read only in the event something didn't go as planned. I FEELT KIND OF SILLY BEFORE I STARTED BUT AFTER IT WAS IN PRINT AND SEALED UP I KNOW NOW THAT I HAVE MY BASES COVERED!!! i have great faith that this is gods will for me to be given this second chance. but just in case i know they have a personal note from their mom. and it actually has taken alot of the little fears that were starting to get to me AWAY...... I FEEL AT PEASE WITH MY DECISION AND KNOW THAT GOD WILLSEE US THROUGH!!!!! GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR SURGERY SHELBY I GO IN TOMORROW AT200PM

Thank you for saying that. I have had the urge to do the same thing but I felt I might crumble from all the emotion it would take to do it. Maybe it would make me feel better. Good luck on your surgery.

arlene, you are not alone i actually wrote letters to all three of my son's and my husband to be read only in the event something didn't go as planned. I FEELT KIND OF SILLY BEFORE I STARTED BUT AFTER IT WAS IN PRINT AND SEALED UP I KNOW NOW THAT I HAVE MY BASES COVERED!!! i have great faith that this is gods will for me to be given this second chance. but just in case i know they have a personal note from their mom. and it actually has taken alot of the little fears that were starting to get to me AWAY...... I FEEL AT PEASE WITH MY DECISION AND KNOW THAT GOD WILLSEE US THROUGH!!!!! GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR SURGERY SHELBY I GO IN TOMORROW AT200PM

OMG...I am so happy to have found this post... I have been crying like theres no tomorrow! All I wanna do is be loved and touched by my husband...I know I gotta be driving him crazy and on top of it all i have my period so you can only imagine the emotional roller coaster I am on! I'm sorry you girls are going through the same thing but I will say it is a bit of a relief that Im not alone... I too thought about writing a letter to my husband...just incase...but...i couldnt get myself to do it...it was almost like saying goodbye...and dammit I'm staying alive!!!!!!!!...LOL Good luck to you girls and hopefully we can all look back at this post and say how silly we were! Tanya

Arlene, I think we're all in the same boat. We try & try not to worry, but that's the human side of us. Just don't let fear consume your Faith. I keep telling myself I'm not nervous, but I'm really starting to feel it. Next week, Ill probably be a basket case. I just keep trying to picture myself 1 year from now & that has reassured me. Good luck, God Bless & know that you're not alone with your feelings. Take Care Tammy

Arlene, I cried everytime someone spoke to me the day before my surgery, but the day of my surgery I felt at peace and I knew that this was a step that needed to be taken. It's natural to think the worse of any life changing event, face it. You're human. Everything will be ok, spend time with your family, it will calm you. Good luck Arlene--Here's to the new you! Kel

My panic set in the night before surgery. I cried off and on. I had to spend a good bit of time in my room so my kids wouldn't see me crying. I woke up the next morning determined not to scare them, so all morning I smiled and was happy, they helped me take my bag and pillows to the car and I smiled as we pulled out of the driveway and waved good bye. As soon as we passed my front yard I was bawling. I went through waves of emotions all morning, calm and peaceful one moment, crying and scared the next. I requested the chaplain at the hospital come be with me while I was being prepped, and he prayed with me, my husband and my nurses. The serenity that engulfed me while he prayed was awesome. After that, I was ok. You'll do great, but you'll go through some really weird emotions until you wake up in that recovery room. It's completely normal.