Aug 4th is my date I am scared and excited

I have a date Aug 4th my brothers birthday. I found out today On what would have been my father's birthday. He passed away in 03. I know that means he and my mother (who also passed away 3 weeks before him in 2003) will be watching over me during surgery. See all you winners on the loseing side! Shawna

congratulations on your surgery date. we will all be on the loosing side very soon. I too wil be only four days behind you and am getting really nervous. i have waited for years for this and now that it is finally here, i can hardly deal with it. where is the xanax when you need it! sara

Sara, I really liked your profile. I am sorry about the loss of your mom. I too have anxiety about the surgery because of the first hand knowledge of loss. I know how devestating it has been for me to be without parents and I am 35. I don't want to do that to my kids. I have three teens. I have a boy 17 a girl 16 and a 15 yr old girl. I know they need me. Its like a double edge sword though because they dont have a mom who can participate because of my weight. I am doing this so I can live. I want to be there for them and pray that God will let me be here for them for a long time to come. I too plan on writing my family letters though because I know death is real. I have seen it way to close up. On the positive side my daddy always said only the good die young! I should be just fine then ...lol Shawna