I know how you feel

I have been dealing with similar emotions. Wanting the day to be here, thinking of the surgery every moment, wondering what I will be able to tolerate immediatly after surgery. will I be quick to heal? how soon can I go back to work. and a ton of others! Someone posted on the main board about keeping busy, getting your house ready for surgery too! That has helped me tremendously! I force myself to clean that extra bit, you know spotless. Because it takes my mind off surgery for a little while and has helped me be calm. Hope this helps! and youre not losing it....Yet, LOL Paula L. Soon we will be!