IS it scarey and freaky???

Is it scarey and freaky that I am getting nervous that I want to organixe MY stuff and get out the clutter and su*****ase something were to happen to me? Like if I were not to come home so my hubby would not be hasseled with alot of mumble jumble of getting rid of my stuff? did any of that make sense? Has anyone made any list on what to take with them to the hospital?

I have done some things in preperation for 'just in case'. We've been pushing hard to get the adoption final before my surgery date (husband is adoption my children), my will is being prepared, I have framed lots of our wedding pictures and hung them up (per hubby's request), given him some specifics on what I want for the children and for my funeral, etc. I've made my hospital list. Robe, slippers, chapstick, baby wipes, tongs, pictures of my family, a small fan, my own pillows from home, and hubby is bringing his laptop so I'll have music if I want it. Congrats on your surgery date Jen!!

I think it is just being real!! I too have been cleaning (house) so to speak just in case..noone in my family will even let me bring up the D word but they do realize it is a surgery and that is always the possibility with any surgery soo.....I have a peace about it that if it's my time to get healthy or time to go home I am ready for either!! Take Care Lori A.

Hi Jenni, You're right it is scary, I have been trying to mental and physically prepare myself for the "WHAT IF". But I am starting to think its not possible. Overall I know I need this surgery if I am to have a chance at living to see my grandchildren, but it is very hard to come to grips with the fact that you may not come home from the day you look so very much forward to. I just try not to let it consume me, and enjoy life with my family as much as I can just in case. But I will keep you all in my prayers for a safe and uneventful journey to the losing side. See ya on the losing side soon.......