Miss Everyone

Hi Everyone, I kept checking my email at work and at home and forgot to come out here. I just read through the posts and can say at 18 months I am at the same place as most of you. Still have weight to lose, graze and can eat sometimes more that other times. I can pack in the calories. I have been having protein for breakfast and now I am going to start a healthy diet. I had two surgeries and will be able to work out again next week. I did gain over the holidays, I took it right off. I gained about 3-5 lbs. Since I want plastic Surgery and I wont get it paid for by insurance I was thinking I should get my boobs done. My boobs have always been large however they now sag like crazy. I think boobs are the cheapest way to go. A lot less then the tummy tuck. Maybe that will make me feel good about my new body. I met up with my friend from junior high school, we had not seen each other for 30+ years. I had forgotten that she had Anorexia as a kid. She has lived with that all her life. I guess that is why I have such unrealistic body and weight images. She is still so tiny. She works out like crazy, but she does eat. How much not sure yet , can't be much. When I was a kid 3 of my best friends had anorexia. I didn't and was not fat just right. Well I would always try to get them to eat. I kinda forgot about this part of my life. I then moved away from them and my next friend did not have anorexia but she had stomach problems and when see ate she always would get sick and she was very skinny. They were all very short in comparison to me so my whole life I felt like a cow. My friends all weighed 85 lbs and under and I weighed 120. Well meeting her has helped me understand that way back I put it in my head that I was fat and a cow even when I was not , but I did evenually become one. I also want to becaome thin again, but I don't want to starve myself in the process. I starved myself in my twenties trying to stay 120 and under.I took speed to stay thin and not eat. I messed up my metabolism I am 5'8" and I know 120 is a weight that looks thin but I can not maintain in a healthy way. So I am going to really start to work out and eat healthy food and supplement it with protein and water and vitamins and Juice Plus and see what I can do this year. Hopefully I can get to 135 and maintain it. I have been weighing in at 153-149 for months now. I drink this protein by Jay Robbs and he has a fat burning diet which is a combo of low carbs and low fat and so I ordered it and want to see what it is all about. I think it sounds healthy and that is what I am trying to become. I brought three little tangerines to work for snacks so I dont munch on candy. Chocolate and candy are my vices. Well I miss you all and hope this year we use our tool and get what we want out of it. Diana

Diana, Nice to hear from you. Isn't it interesting that now, as adults, we can finally start to figure out the root cause of our obesity (somewhat at least).... I'm still working on figuring mine out. I've been in the 180's since July of last year. I'm very happy where I am. Although, it would be awesome to get into the 170's & stay there fore a while. Most of my body (from my shoulders to my knees) really need help. My boobs have completed deflated, my arms have terrible skin...stomach, thighs & butt all sag. Of course, they all look pretty good under my clothes. My insurance doesn't pay for plastics either so maybe in the next couple of years I'll work on that. Although, my sister & I finished our application video's for Extreme Makeover yesterday...wouldn't that be awesome???? I'd love to work with Michael Thurman just to learn the right exercises to target the problem areas. Of course I could do 6 zillion crunches & my hanging skin will never go away without PS. Too much stretching out over the years. Anyway, I think all of us are working really hard to get back on track & use our tool properly. Keep posting...it sure does keep me going on the straight & narrow. Tammy

Hi Tammy, I TOTALLY agree about spending time with Michael. It always amazes me how many inches he gets folk to lose in 6 weeks. He has a 6-week 'boot camp' type thing you could do - cheaper than plastic - if you can break off from all your work and family for 6 weeks and find someone to stay with. Dawn

Hi Diana, Seems we are all bearing our souls in here lately. I think this is very normal for us though. I am still trying to figure out my issues but am feeling better about things. We all need to come in here for support when we need it. It feels better knowing that we are all going through much of the same stuff! Makes it easier to get through it all. Where do you buy your Juice Plus? I looked for it at Rite Aid today and couldn't find any. I was also looking for a good protein shake (mix) that doesn't taste horrible. I just can't drink the whey protein shakes. They make me gag. Thanks for checking in. We miss you too! Lori

As for the protein shakes, I make my own. 8oz milk 1/4 cup Carnation instant breakfast mix (chocolate) 2 scoops of unflavored soy protein powder 1 tbsp sugar free chocolate syrup Blend. The choco syrup helps cover that much protein powder. Going on 12 months and I am not sick of it yet. But I only drink them after I work out (Every other day) or if I am running late in the morning, so maybe that is why I don't get sick of them. Oh and the stats: milk 90 cal protein 120 cal instant breakfast 130 cal Choco syrup 12 cal -------------------------------- 352 calories That may seem like a lot, but after working out, I need the protein to rebuild and the natural sugars/carbs to boost me and I don't get hungry in between. As for the weight issue. Talk to some people around you, LISTEN to what they say about your body. I still look in the mirror and see every flaw, how my stomach sticks out, etc. I am 5'8 and 165. People around me tell me I am sooo tiny. I have never been sooo tiny, so I have a hard time hearing it, but let them give you another perspective on how you really look, outside the clouded view of those 'fat glasses" we all still wear from time to time. Good Luck!

Hey Sweetie! Wow - what a background of baggage! You've done super to overcome those roll models. I'm with Tammy not knowing really where/how I got to were I was. I can point to life changes, but not really emotional ones. But, if we deal with the here and now, since we can't fix the past, we'll all do fine. May I suggest a way to select a goal weight? The reason I ask is I'm 5'6 1/2 and weigh 135 and I'm wearing size sm and usually a 6 with some 4's thrown in. As you're 5'8, 135 for you seems like your old 120. I selected 135 because it put me at a 21 BMI which is in the lower side of a healthy BMI range. Since you're goal is to be healthy - why not let the BMI set it for ya? Glad you're here letting us know how you're doing and giving us support as well. Dawn