OT: Monday is the day, so wish me luck!
Hi August Buddies,
I posted about 1 1/2 weeks ago about this guy that I like. He is coming into the office on Monday for an appointment and I am going to ask him out. Just need a little courage and support from you all and lots of prayers that I don't chicken out this time.
I've posted my 8 and 9 month post-op pics on my profile if you want to see me. They are pretty far down on the page. I've also lost 89.5 pounds, down to 203.5, so I am 4 pounds from onederland and 10.5 pounds from the century club. I never thought I would weigh under 200 pounds in my life again.
This journey has been awesome.
Lori
293/203.5/135/130
Hi Lori,
You're looking wonderful! Good luck and remember, you've talked and you've both enjoyed it. Plus, the worst thing will be he says no, but if you're too concerned about that, you won't ask and if don't ask, you'll never get a yes. Wear your favorite outfit, your favorite perfume to give you a little sparkle in your eye and a little extra confidence and you go girl!!
Dawn
258/135.6/135
Thanks for your encouragement, Dawn.
Well, he came in and we talked, then he had his appointment with my boss. After the appt., we talked some more and then I did it. I said, "This is really ackward for me, but I don't know if you are dating, but if you would have an interest I would really enjoy going out with you."
He was really sweet, but told me he has been seeing someone for 13 months now. I feel so stupid. I can't believe I misread his kindness as something more. My boss keeps telling me that I at least asked, but I don't feel very proud of myself. What I feel is like a total a$$ right now.
All I hear in my head is my former professor from years back who said, "Take a risk." and that turned out bad too. I don't know if risking it is worth the heartache.
My boss says to keep asking people out, but I am sick and tired of not even getting a first date. I just am tired of being the forever friend to a guy and never having anything more.
I'm having a huge pity party right now, but I hope to be back to myself in a few days. I am just plain angry with myself for forgetting what life has been like for 46 years. Did I really think it could change?!
Sorry, Dawn, I really am down right now.
I do appreciate your encouragment so much though.
Lori