Good morning my fellow A...

Good morning my fellow August Babies!!! I don't post much. I am a much better lurker or have been in the past, I should say. Its been a busy few months with the holidays and family events. I've somehow avoided updating my profile since before surgery. I was scared, oh yeah you heard that right SCARED. If I updated how good I was doing It would fade away. LOL. Its weird thought process but it was mine. I certainly know in my reasoning its not how it works. Today here I am to post and add to my profile. Having now reached 199 as of last evening at the support meeting.I see the difference in my body shape totally! I also see my self esteem has changed 10 folds. With that said I have to thank my friends from OH and my support meetings. I've met the best people from both places and just love them. With the start of reseaching this surgery RnY I never grasped how much would change in my entire life. Its a rollercoaster as most call it. I have found out many things about myself that I always said I wouldn't think or do. My temperment, anger, kindness and thoughts have all changed for the better. I am no longer a sad,fat, bitter woman who only wanted people on my terms. Talk about control issues!!!!! I still have them but I am MUCH more flexable. Life is progressing nicely and I am getting comfortable in the process. I've not set a goal for the WL as of yet nor has my Surgeon. The goals I did set have been reached thus far. Recently only problem I've really had in concern of RnY is that I have no desire to eat or want. I looked at what was eatten yesterday and know I have to start a effort to eat or I will just not do it. I hope all of you are doing well and looking forward to a wonderful NEW YEAR! Be safe and responsible. GOOD LUCK Chatty Tina

Hi Tina! I read your post and my mouth dropped open-I, too, have not updated my profile for much the same reasoning. It's like it's too good to be true. I have kept records for myself as to my progress, I will be sharing probably after the holidays-too many issues since Thanksgiving. I was happy to see that you're doing well with your attitude. I, on the other hand, feel bitter that people see me as a "normal" person now and not worth their time 66 lbs ago. It hurts. I feel good inside about myself and realize that a lot of my attitude is probably my own protective posturing in order to keep myself safe from others. (I'm very shy on top of everything else.) I am working diligently to change these feelings, I want to be a whole and happy person. Try to eat healthy and ignore the lack of desire for food. Your health is of the upmost importance! Feeding yourself well (nutritious!) is one form of self love! Care for yourself just as you do for others. Have a wonderful New Year! Celebrate your new life! Nancy A