I am such a failure!

I had a panic attack! I was freaking out... I cried and cried.. I ended up leaving and not having surgery! I cannot believe I back out on my surgery day. About 10 minutes before surgery I made them unhook me from the IV! I guess I will look into finding a Dr that does Lap instead of open... I am just too scared to have it done... I thought all of these feeling I was having would go away! Annette

you are not a failure. you just got scared.sending hugs to you if you want to talk email me

You know Annette. God has a wonderful way of always making things right. Your panic attack might have been justified at the moment. Whatever happened does NOT make you a failure. For heavens sake! You are not defined by that moment. You will be okay.

oh I'm sorry you had that happen to you but it can happen to anyone of us, you are not a failure!! Keep your chin up and do what you feel is good for you !! Best wishes Linda

You are not a failure. I have panic attacks everytime I walk into the hospital. I have to be on medication to make it through many medical tests. Give this some time and maybe you will be ready later. My surgery is scheduled for August 9th with Dr. Ferrari. I go tomorrow for my pre-op stuff and I am a nervous wreck! I hope they will let me take my meds before and after surgery. Keep your chin up! Penny Muston Bay City, Tx Date Scheduled 8/9/04

Annette, you are not a failure! We all let our emotions get the better of us sometimes. Don't beat yourself up about it. If you decide to go back, you might want to ask for some meds to take off the edge before going into surgery. I was told as soon as I give all my doctors the info they need surgery day, they are going to give me a Valium! Yippee!!! Then right before surgery they will give me the IV and ship me off to the OR. Good luck on finding another surgeon and your WLS journey! Keep us updated! *~Amber~*

There is absolutly nothing wrong with what you did...You were not ready and thats that... I was told by a very wise older lady who had her surgery when it was first being done, that if you dont want it just yet then dont do it... She even walked out of her prep room as well..but she finnaly had it done and she looks and feels great.... Be proud of what you did... your a strong person to stand up and walk out if you werent ready.... God bless..........

annette by no means are u a failure...we all feel this way to some degree, except most of us dont have the balls to do what u did! believe it or not i think u are stronger for doing that! believe in fate, it just wasnt your time. when u are ready, u will do it, or something else.

Annette: Don't beat yourself up about this. You did what you felt you had to. Just relax and take your time and maybe research the lap a bit. Even if you don't have anything done you aren't a failure, just not ready. Best wishes Patty

I do not think listening to yourself and then taking action is a sign of failure, rather a sign of courage. Taking care of yourself is never wrong and you changing your mind is good self care. For whatever reason you were not ready yet and that is okay. I have surgery on 8/11 and I tell myself I have up until I am put under to change my mind. I suffered from horrible panic attacks for a couple of years and I am so sorry you had to go thorugh that, especially over something you worked so hard to get. I urge you not to be angry at yourself. Look into a lap procedure and see if you are more comfortable with it. I started out with a surgeon who only did open and through a wonderful twist of fate I ended up with a surgeon who does lap surgery. Be brave and strong...things will work out. God bless, Kristina