I did it...I finally got a new date~
It has been a very long road for me these last 2 years. First deciding to have this surgery for all the right reasons...then not being able to go through with it. Which for a while I blamed myself and put myself down as being a weakling and a failure..hell I couldnt' even do that right. But 3 days after my first scheduled surgery date...my father in law passed away...it was a very traumatic event...and my son broke his collar bone in 3 places. Sooo in a way I am glad that I didn't do it. I would not have been there for my family when they needed me. Well now August 12th is my new date. I am scared but looking forward to it this time. Just hope I dont have to be there at 5 am again lol...it was hard enough for me to get up at 8am.