11 years and up 47 pounds ( originally up 64) Optifast Optisource question...

So disapointed in myself.

Originally I weighed 270+ and I lost 130 pounds. I kept that weight off for the longest time by exersizing and following a healthy diet. My best friend passed away and I went into a depression and stopped working out and started comfort eating. Then a couple years after My mother passed away and 9 months after my father passed away. Well the emotional eater in me came out and before I knew it I was 207 pounds.

I have reached a point where I am finally able to accept the terrible loss's I have had over the past few years and I am trying to get on with my life and get my health back in check. I found out I have the start of arthritis in my knees and I feel like this weight gain has caused alot of added pain in combination with that. My knees ache, my hip and my heels ache. Most nights I spend turning from side to side because the pain is so bad.  I have been going through PT and its not improving so I know this extra weight isnt helping. Im very anemic and finally went for a series of iron infusions so hopefully that will help.

How did I allow this to happen?? I feel worse now than I did when I was 270. I have managed to get about 17 pounds off since I started going back to my PCP and getting my tests done and labs etc. Going off my anti depressants etc.

I feel like I need something more...I have been looking into liquid diets and wondered if anyone has been in my situation and if they have had success with the Optifast program? and also curious what the Optisource sold at Walgreens is about. How different are the two products where they are by the same company?

Am I alone in this or is anyone else in my boat?

Maureen

43 Years Old

RNY August 29 2002

Start weight 270+

Goal weight 150

May 2005 reached 143

Current weight January 2013 is 190