I feel the pain. That surgiversary date coming so quickly. I see photos of me then and see photos of me now and there is a huge difference. From wearing a size 52 pants at my worst to now down to a size 36 only because my thighs have more muscle from olympic weightlifting doing the crossfit. I can't believe 3 months ago my waist was the problem for a 36 and now it is my quadricepts and hamstrings , lol.  The suit my friends bought me for Christmas has a waist size of 38 an now those pants are huge on me in the middle. 

Have I changed my goal weight? I don't think so.  I think I changed it sometime last year from 145 lbs to 165 lbs. But I don't think if I don't reach it by July 28th I will consider myself a failure. Butegg for some reason I want that scale to move down.... I am leaning out  , and it may not get to 165 by then , but if it does , cool.

I have resigned myself to the facts  , like egg person above, that my goal was to live longer and for me that was  getting rid of the type 2 diabetes. Gotta say , as of last month, I would have probably already succumbed to type 2 diabetes complications and died. I know I am successful because I don't have those horrible abscesses on my rump that would not heal , now there are only scars. ANd I just despise the fact I may wind up wearring a speedo with a six pack , you never know, and those scars are there on my butt!  To go from wondering if I will be here , to worried about how I will look in a speedo in 6 or 9 months , wow , things change.

I want to be rich and make lot's of money  but right now all I concentrate on is working out and eating right... I am so impatient with myself. I have to stay focused on that goal and what is good for me. Carbs are only in my mind. I don't need them. That way of eating is what added to my pain and suffering. This lifelong battle will be lifelong. I sure do want those six pack , washboard abs , I may never get them , but I am gonna strive for them anyway.

But that surgiversary date is coming up soon and I see folks down to 145 lbs and below . At te Crossfit gym I go to I meet people who are there to gain weight. SO I am sticking with the 165 goal. I can also live with 175 lbs too. That would mean I only have 15 lbs to lose. In my youth in the marine corps I maintained 175 -180. The fittest I was ever in my life. I got sick at my MOS school with bronchitis and couldn't keep anything down because of the hacking cough and went down to 145 lbs. That was the lightest I ever weighed.  I fi stick with the primal diet, paleo some call It , I think I can lose 30 lbs in a month while crossfitting , that would take me down to 160 by june 28 next month. I think my muscle gain has also leveled off. So I will see weight loss , but from all indications I will lean out but be around 175 and 180 with a 32 or 34 waistline by then.

It's funny, because the first thing that I thought was that the sizes must have gotten bigger, because there is no way that I could fit into some of the things now that just seemed so small then.  I literally threw away ALL of my old clothes... I don't want to have anything big in my closet, because if my clothes start getting tight, I want to work it off, not just put on the bigger clothes again..ha!

Oh man, you look perfect girlie!  Your pic totally motivated me, since I am so close to my goal as well! 

My life is now packed in boxes as we speak!!... I was hoping you could help me out in that gray area Laura..my duty station is COOK county so I do not want to stay in the city but somewhere out of Chicago?? How is Naperville, Aurora, I think its called Elberville.. I might be saying it wrong.. I like these areas.. can you send me some info to some nice towns no more than 25 miles out of Chicago.. I appreciate your concern..I will send my email address through the email service on Obesity help.. I won't link it here I got contacted by a pervert on here one time had to report them to Obesity Help..LOL.. good nite Laura.. I have had experience in snow.. but I will be a newbie to the snow that drops in CHI-Town

Yeah, mine was a real jerk.  So, you know what I did?  I fired him!  Think about it---he works for YOU.  You pay him!  So, why wouldn't you want him to do a good job?  Ask family and friends for a referral... they might have someone that they love that will work out much better for you!  You don't have to take the snyde remarks, and uncaring comments!  You are worth so much more than that! 

Good luck my dear!