OH my dear friend.... I could have written this myself! YOU ARE NOT ALONE.....
what great responses from these two terrific gals!

WE DO DESERVE THIS!  a missed doctor appt and not choosing to eat according to plan does not make us TOTAL FAILURES!!!

It just means we've begun to use food as a reward again... and need to get back on track.  I want to eat like a "NORMAL" person. but a small treat here & there has led to another small treat & another. I don't dump so I've been having tons of watermelon, bing cherries by the bucket load (ok not all at once) some ice cream (small size... but not BABY cone... and a note on this...I really only need to have a BABY size to satisfy me.... once i get past that I don't taste it anymore... so its pointless calories-DUMB)

I've also been hooked on a certain candy bar. they are LIMITED Edition twix that I have to HUNT for. so when i see them I pick up 3 packages telling my self 1 half at a time... but then i eat both pieces.

these are not good behaviors for continued weight maintance let alone continued weight loss. I KNOW THAT! so WHY am I DOING IT?

... we've heard it before... THIS ISN'T BRAIN SURGERY...

Although I'm some where around a SMALL 4-6 to 8-10 depending on the clothes.... I FEEL like i LOOK FAT! perhaps because when naked... i see all that skin... and I try to imagine how I would have looked if I had never gotten MO!!!  well I did get MO... and now I'm in high normal.... and it scares me!

We are not failures.... we just need to get back on track....
Will you join me in our effort to get to goal? if you wish we could become ACCOUNTABILITY Partners... PM me....

WE WILL MAKE IT! 
besides WE ARE ALREADY WINNERS!

Just think how much healthier we are THIS YEAR!!!! 

So here we are one year post op......Our lives have changed dramatically over the last year.  Some have had struggles along the way with complications while some have had smooth sailing to this point.  We have all probably compared our success to that of others as well as shared momentary lapses in judgement. 
One thing I know is that I would never take back my decision to have surgery.  I will no longer hold myself to the standards others expect of me.  I will work my tool in a way that suits my life.  I will accept that I have made some poor choices over this last year and I will look back and learn from whatever consequences I've had from them.  I will accept that I will never be perfect in the decisions I make but I will do my best to ensure I remain happy and positive about my outcome. 

This fight will never be over......I cannot do this alone and will not do it alone because this is a battle I can never win if I rely solely on myself. 
I thank all of you for sharing your experiences with me over this last year.  Without it I don't think I could have been as successful as I have.  Nor be so accepting of the fact that we ALL struggle to reach our goals.......It's that struggle that makes us appreciate obtaining those goals!

I just checked out your profile, and I don't see a fat girl - I see someone who from Mar '09 to Mar '10 looks like she lost about 10 years and is glowing with health! :) 

You hit the nail on the head with "I'm not thin and don't think I ever will be" and "I don't think I deserve this" ...  Maybe you won't ever be "thin", but you are already much healthier than you were a year ago, and if you don't feel like you deserve to be healthy then it's time to work that out, hopefully with a professional!  Try to remember that you had the surgery because deep down inside you DO believe you deserve this, and you've done an amazing job so far of working toward that!  We all have our bad days/weeks/periods where we don't live up to the model post-op standard, but instead of letting that completely derail you, just let it go and decide to change what you can when you can! 

Could you be more consistent? Sure... Could you be making better choices?  Yep... so those are great first steps to getting back down to the basics and on track.  I think the fact that you posted is a smart first step - you can be sure that you're speaking for many of us who are struggling with the same feelings and challenges!  I was feeling pretty down on myself a few months ago and went back for a couple of appointments with the psychologist who did my psych eval before surgery ... I discovered much to my surprise that I somehow had it in my head that I wasn't a "success" if I hadn't lost everything by my 1 year surgiversary!  Who told me that? Um, no one - just that little voice inside!  Quite to the contrary - at my 1 year checkup my surgeon told me that even if I didn't lose another pound I'm considered a success, and he's right!

You've had such a positive attitude throughout this year that I really hope you're just having a rough patch!  I'm sure those two gorgeous girls are loving having a mom with more energy - and here's a chance to show them how to keep going when it gets rough!

I'm one of the July'ers who has been with y'all throughout this journey every day, but never felt compelled to post - until now!  We really are all in this together and I hope that you remember you're not alone!

Good luck!


 

Congrats Lisa!!!  You crack me up!  I can't wait to get my issue of OH mag with this in it.  So proud of you!

So how did the move go?