How 6 months of Alcoholism and Laziness got me a 33lbs weight gain!
REPOSTED from my blog... hope everyone is well. Miss ya!
Long time...
As I sit here and try to think of some bull**** lies to say... I won't. Here's what's up. I lost a **** load of weight, stopped going to support groups cause I thought I was hot **** continued drinking wine like water and havent been on a regular gym schedule in months. Ahh... what eles, oh, I started smoking ciggerrets. I'm at work today, and was actually looking up revision surgerys, I visited Lindora.com, Jenny Craig.com, and Weigh****chers.com too. I'm almost 3 years out and got to damn comfortable. I had to give in and buy size 12 jeans and even those are snugg now. WTF??? Oh hell no!!!!!!! I will not buy a size 14. I will NOT.
I need a swift kick in the ass right now for gaining weight. And if you think it's because I'm sitting around eating ho-ho's and cookies and stuff... it's not. It's the wine. Yep, just like they all warn you before you have this surgeory... wine is addictive. I feel like I should slap my damn self cause I knew better and vowed to change up and now look where I am. When I was a kid, there was a stigma with "crackheads". No one in their right mind would say... hey, let me try that - knowing damn well they can't kick that habbit as easy as they think. Well, here I am - should woulda ******g coulda. Should have never drank wine. Couldve stopped when I said I would when I realized it was a problem. I wouldve but there was that party or so and so is coming over - gotta stock up. All the BS I fed to myself.
Well, there it is. 220lbs today. Replaced water with wine. I drink a glass of wine before I go work. 3 bottles when I get home. I actually think I day-dream about wine while at work. Totally an alchohlic. My eating habbits are still the same... I'm too lazy to cook so I don't eat meals... I snack. Carb City.
Last week, I went to Palm Springs and it was hot as hell. 6 months ago, I could be walkin out the house half naked...last week however, as hot as it was - I had on long sleeves and like 3 spanx slips and a long skirt. i lied and said I was on my rag cause I didn't want anyone to see me in a swimsuit. So I sat in the room most of the day... drinking my life away till it got dark and cool enough to hang out side with my friends. What a ******g joke I am.
Well, that is all. I've been fairly open with all of you pre surgery and post. Learn from my mistake.
Today, still happy I had RNY July 2009. Today, mad at myeslf for not heeding the warning.
-Brandi
Long time...
As I sit here and try to think of some bull**** lies to say... I won't. Here's what's up. I lost a **** load of weight, stopped going to support groups cause I thought I was hot **** continued drinking wine like water and havent been on a regular gym schedule in months. Ahh... what eles, oh, I started smoking ciggerrets. I'm at work today, and was actually looking up revision surgerys, I visited Lindora.com, Jenny Craig.com, and Weigh****chers.com too. I'm almost 3 years out and got to damn comfortable. I had to give in and buy size 12 jeans and even those are snugg now. WTF??? Oh hell no!!!!!!! I will not buy a size 14. I will NOT.
I need a swift kick in the ass right now for gaining weight. And if you think it's because I'm sitting around eating ho-ho's and cookies and stuff... it's not. It's the wine. Yep, just like they all warn you before you have this surgeory... wine is addictive. I feel like I should slap my damn self cause I knew better and vowed to change up and now look where I am. When I was a kid, there was a stigma with "crackheads". No one in their right mind would say... hey, let me try that - knowing damn well they can't kick that habbit as easy as they think. Well, here I am - should woulda ******g coulda. Should have never drank wine. Couldve stopped when I said I would when I realized it was a problem. I wouldve but there was that party or so and so is coming over - gotta stock up. All the BS I fed to myself.
Well, there it is. 220lbs today. Replaced water with wine. I drink a glass of wine before I go work. 3 bottles when I get home. I actually think I day-dream about wine while at work. Totally an alchohlic. My eating habbits are still the same... I'm too lazy to cook so I don't eat meals... I snack. Carb City.
Last week, I went to Palm Springs and it was hot as hell. 6 months ago, I could be walkin out the house half naked...last week however, as hot as it was - I had on long sleeves and like 3 spanx slips and a long skirt. i lied and said I was on my rag cause I didn't want anyone to see me in a swimsuit. So I sat in the room most of the day... drinking my life away till it got dark and cool enough to hang out side with my friends. What a ******g joke I am.
Well, that is all. I've been fairly open with all of you pre surgery and post. Learn from my mistake.
Today, still happy I had RNY July 2009. Today, mad at myeslf for not heeding the warning.
-Brandi
AT GOAL in 336 days...!
SW / CW / GW
299 /174.5/ 175
6' tall - size 10
SW / CW / GW
299 /174.5/ 175
6' tall - size 10
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