I'm still ME!...Reflections

So, here I am, sitting at my desk at work...looking in a mirror, and I see "ME". It's odd to think that a year ago I looked puffy, obese, fat, etc., but now, all I think about is that I'm still me. I haven't changed. In fact, I have a hard time noticing any change at all. I forget that I look different, because, while I feel different, I still feel like "ME". People don't recognize me on the street at first, and when they finally do, they freak the hell out. It makes me so uncomfortable. It makes me wonder if they really knew "Me" at all. weird.

I, too, get uncomfortable when people make a big deal about my weight.  I understand it, but I want to get on with my life!  I always feel so much better about people who just comment and then move on.  For whatever reason they do, I am grateful.

I feel ya Kari... it takes time I'm over 185 lbs thinner but I sometimes beat my self up.. like i haven't did such a great job.. but people will comment like.. " YOU LOOK GREAT.. cause you were SOOO BIG... COME ON PEOPLE.. be happy... I talked to a DOC.. he said that it will take time because the mine has to caught up because it could not kept up with the fast loss.. so I guess PSYC.the mind cant alter your look in the mirror.. but it will be okay.

I agree...

Now friends are telling me to go eat something!!!

people are strange...even our friends... (birds of a feather i guess)

Still... I have a problem with strangers *****act SO DIFFERENTLY than when I was MORBIDLY OBESE!..

just the other day I got angry inside for the assistance that I received while picking up a few things at HOME DePOT for our bathroom remodel. I was standing by the bathroom sink fixtures...down an aisle when a male employee walked past in the big center aisle. He saw me and quickly turned to ask if I needed help.
WHICH I DID... I had a question.
BUT.... how many times did I have to HUNT for someone BEFORE???

and when i had another question this guy willingly led me to the place where I could find the water connections for the faucets... instead of the usual... it's down that aisle POINTING..

THEN... he stood there searching for the right lenght connections for me.  I know i should be grateful for the help. I know Home DePot has a push on for more customer service... BUT I can't help thinking...

WOULD I REALLY HAVE GOTTEN THAT SERVICE IF I WAS MY FORMER MORBIDLY OBESE SELF???

No... I don't think so... yet a MO person's $$$ is just as good as a thin persons... isn't it? or is there some hidden code on my $$$ now that makes my dollars more valuable????

I'm right there with you...I've found that I am much more cynical (sp?) now than I ever was, and I always wonder about peoples motives, etc.

Oh, and I got a RAISE...a BIG raise (well, 15% is big to me). I'm so glad I did, but come on, I'm the same person!