Ugh
I have stayed away because I have been so bad that I am embarrassed. I have been eating non stop. And I mean like I used to eat! Bad stuff and in large quantities! I don't know what has happened here. I was doing so well and then all of a sudden I had this uncontrollable appetite.
I need to do the 5dpt! I have tons going on right now and I think a lot has to do with easy convenience of bad food and the temptations of stuff that I know I shouldn't eat.
I devoured a big slice of one of those white cakes with strawberries, glaze and whipped cream. I was so sick moments later and felt the guilt so strongly over what I had done. I don't want to gain this weight back... WHAT AM I DOING?!?!
I need to do the 5dpt! I have tons going on right now and I think a lot has to do with easy convenience of bad food and the temptations of stuff that I know I shouldn't eat.
I devoured a big slice of one of those white cakes with strawberries, glaze and whipped cream. I was so sick moments later and felt the guilt so strongly over what I had done. I don't want to gain this weight back... WHAT AM I DOING?!?!
Girl, I am in EXACTLY the same position you are. I've pretty much reached my goal weight but I'm no longer losing anything and I've been venturing back into my old habits and ways of eating and it's really scary. I feel out of control, too. I'm also thinking I need to do the 5 day pouch test to get a grip again. It's like you said - my appetite feels uncontrollable. Know that you are NOT alone. We have come way too far to get back into our old habits! Let's do the 5 day pouch test.
Don't stay away. You will not be judged here. Most of us are going through the same things!
I am still terrified I will overeat and screw this whole thing up. I have my days where I make poor choice after poor choice. But I try to start a new beginning each time and I still congradulate myself when I make a good choice. So I can acknowledge that I DO make good choices, too.
I know I eat way more than I should. I haven't lost any weight in over three months. I know that if I was eating less I would still be losing and yet I am not willing to starve myself, so I live in fear of the "inevitable regain" and what that will bring and how will I feel when I had the opportunity to start at a lower wieght but didn't get down low enough. Does that makes sense?
I don't think I have done nearly enough to change my old eating habits and if I think about that too long I get a HUGE clutch of panic up in my throat. I don't ever want to be fat again! And I find that to be a huge motivator if I let it. Sometimes it is just enough to help me make the right choices!
The only thing I am doing very well right now is exercise. I figure if I make poor eating choices and refuse to starve myself, the LEAST I can do is exercise to offset some of those calories. For me, right now, it is working and I feel extremely grateful for that.
Come back. every day if thats what it takes. No one will think less of you and everyone will try their best to support you. Tell us what is working as well as what is not working and maybe someone can help. Or maybe, by your just being willing to share your struggles, you will help someone else!
Take care,
Ruth
I am still terrified I will overeat and screw this whole thing up. I have my days where I make poor choice after poor choice. But I try to start a new beginning each time and I still congradulate myself when I make a good choice. So I can acknowledge that I DO make good choices, too.
I know I eat way more than I should. I haven't lost any weight in over three months. I know that if I was eating less I would still be losing and yet I am not willing to starve myself, so I live in fear of the "inevitable regain" and what that will bring and how will I feel when I had the opportunity to start at a lower wieght but didn't get down low enough. Does that makes sense?
I don't think I have done nearly enough to change my old eating habits and if I think about that too long I get a HUGE clutch of panic up in my throat. I don't ever want to be fat again! And I find that to be a huge motivator if I let it. Sometimes it is just enough to help me make the right choices!
The only thing I am doing very well right now is exercise. I figure if I make poor eating choices and refuse to starve myself, the LEAST I can do is exercise to offset some of those calories. For me, right now, it is working and I feel extremely grateful for that.
Come back. every day if thats what it takes. No one will think less of you and everyone will try their best to support you. Tell us what is working as well as what is not working and maybe someone can help. Or maybe, by your just being willing to share your struggles, you will help someone else!
Take care,
Ruth
Girlie.. do not worry .. its a day to day thing... it will take time.. they problem .. we women will always have is hormone imbalance which causes us to eat.. a lot at times.. then nothing at all.. you may want to get this check.. mine are extremely out of whack especially since my weight is still not stable.. my regular DOC said that this will go on till around the 18 to 24 months after surgery.. he says this causes the fluctuations in mood swings.. food appetite.. and weight changes.. when you feel that hungry.. I try to grab high protein stuff.. roasted chicken.. deli sliced meat.. turkey jerky.. or Wendy's chili.. it tends to work.. also since I started using a potassium vitamin.. it kinda help the hormone spike imbalance( estrogene).. but first talk to your doctor.. you are okay girlie.. and if you work out at least 3 times per week your metabolism will function properly to sub-size the occasional treats..
LUV & HUGS!!
LUV & HUGS!!
Lisa 
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