I think I'm crazy!!
We'll I have a little deli-ma..
I have two potential persons that are interested in me.. but the cool thing is that they saw even at my highest weight..So what's my problem!!.. I mean my friend of 3 yrs always wants me to visit him in San Francisco.. then I chicken out.. because I still see this 380lb person in the MIRROR and I feel like he gots to be nuts to be interested!!.. CRAZY!!.. Then I have a co-worker who is a close friend.. and wanted to take me to the amusement park .. my mind says yes.. but then I farther on whether I can fit on the rides!!... I know I'm no longer the size I was but I believe mentally.. he's crazy for being interested and inviting me on the date in the first place.. and will the new me FIT IN THE D--m Seats!!.. I mean my NUT said that it takes time for brain to even see this new you in the mirrors... she says that the mind will only allow you to see what we feel we look like.. so I get from that .. it's me who won't let go of the FAT LADY SINGING!! we'll if that's the case then I STILL SEE A 380LB LADY STARING BACK A ME!!
I have two potential persons that are interested in me.. but the cool thing is that they saw even at my highest weight..So what's my problem!!.. I mean my friend of 3 yrs always wants me to visit him in San Francisco.. then I chicken out.. because I still see this 380lb person in the MIRROR and I feel like he gots to be nuts to be interested!!.. CRAZY!!.. Then I have a co-worker who is a close friend.. and wanted to take me to the amusement park .. my mind says yes.. but then I farther on whether I can fit on the rides!!... I know I'm no longer the size I was but I believe mentally.. he's crazy for being interested and inviting me on the date in the first place.. and will the new me FIT IN THE D--m Seats!!.. I mean my NUT said that it takes time for brain to even see this new you in the mirrors... she says that the mind will only allow you to see what we feel we look like.. so I get from that .. it's me who won't let go of the FAT LADY SINGING!! we'll if that's the case then I STILL SEE A 380LB LADY STARING BACK A ME!!
All I can say is - you'll be just fine and GO FOR IT!! Girl, if your pants are fallin' down to your ankles, chances are you'll fit in the seats. I still amaze myself that I can finally set in my brothers kitchen table chairs and get up again and leave the seat behind. Go test your setting skills at your local high school auditorium. They always squeeze them in there soooooo tight. Measure your width with a tape measure and then compare to a smaller width chair. I'll bet you'd be surprised at how easily you'll slide into those seats.
Go on that date and have fun girl. live life!! :-)
Go on that date and have fun girl. live life!! :-)
Girl, listen to Auntie Gena....live ya life...not in fear or un-deservedness! You are beautiful! You are worthy! You are a Georgia Peach, mami! So flip the script girl...time to start thinking - "Why wouldn't they want all this fine-ness!"...
I know it takes our mind so much longer to catch up with our bodies and that's ok...because fortunately you need only your body (mouth) to say, "yep, i'll go" and (legs) to take that first step!
So go on walk it out girl...and let us know how well it goes when you're riding up and down those rollercoaster rides. And act scared, even if you're not...guys like that, plus you can hold on to them!
Luv ya girl!!!
Gena