Just checking in

KristeMitchell
on 9/15/09 2:32 pm
Hey guys!
I haven't posted in a while so I thought I would check in.  I posted a new avatar. I'm proud of this picture. I think my face looks so much thinner.  I'm down 45+ lbs, almost 90 lbs total.  Things have been going pretty good.  I have been struggling lately with wanting to eat like a "normal person".  I went on vacation last weekend and I ate things that i haven't had in a long time.  We went to Buca di Peppos and I had a very small piece of bread with olive oil and vingarette.  I also had 1 wafer cookie and 1/3 of a home made tortilla from a street vender in Old Town San Diego.  Now I know that is not alot to cheat on, but I felt so guilty.  We walked a ton, I brought healthy snacks, and I lost weight over the weekend.  I just felt like I cheated too much.  But on the other hand, I was able to enjoy some "normal" foods in very small doses and that made me feel good about myself.  I ate my protein first.  This is how I want to be.  I want to be able to eat healthy and still be able to enjoy not so healthy things occasionally.  A life without homemade tortillas is just sad and wrong.  So I am working on my mental stuff.  I know that I will work it all out but it is hard finding the balance.  Just wanted to check in and see how you are all handling the mental aspect of this journey.  How are you finding balance?  Have you eaten anything that you felt guilty over?  Looking forward to hearing what you have to say.

 
                  
georgiapeachinla
on 9/15/09 11:24 pm, edited 9/16/09 7:08 am
I believe we all go through this;
But what helps out is having people to talk too.. I think there is nothing wrong with sometimes eating something that we usually don't enjoy...just in moderation... this I one support group i use to go to... DON'T WANT TO SAY THE NAME.. but anyways this lady was staying stuff like they don't eat out no more and go places they just eat at home ... HOW BORING.. WE ARE REGAINING LIFE BACK... just learning to do things different now ... but there's nothing said that we can not ENJOY life and live to the fullest... I know I will still occasionally enjoy a fish TACO IN A minute... JUST in moderation though... but I believe I have did quite well because they way I work it is hard not to go to fast food restaurants, and I have  a lot of meetings with co-workers that require us to eat at restaurants... I just order a entree... or share.. or even eat  the kiddie meal... BUT YOU KNOW WHAT I FEEL FULL.. I think you have done we'll... just think about  last year this time I WOULD HAVE EATEN UP approx. 300.00 dollars in FAST FOOD...CRAZY!!!
P.S.
YOU LOOK MARVELOUS HONEY!!
"When you feel like giving up, remember why you held on for so long in the first place."   
Lisa 
                                        
(deactivated member)
on 9/16/09 1:37 am
Woohoo!!!  That picture is smokin'!!!  You are doing so great!

Homemade tortillas are the absolute best!

Just think about how many tortillas you would have had before surgery.  Instead of just a 1/3, I probably would have had 3 whole ones!  I don't know if I'm right or not, but I think with portion control we should be allowed things like what you had. 

In a perfect world, we would never eat anything bad for us, but we live in real world and the real world has cookies.
PoohkinandPiglet
on 9/16/09 2:10 am - TX
Kriste,

You look great!  I love San Diego.  I have to stay AWAY from Little Italy as I would have no will power at all.  The smells out in the streets are to die for!

I'm dealing with the same thing as far as wanting to eat like a normal person.  I drove past a James Coney Island yesterday and wanted a corn dog like nobody's business.  Not sure why I had such a craving.  The last few days I've been low on calories and protein because I've been too busy to log it in on the daily plate.  I must get back on track so I can get my calories up and the fat burning rolling.

Sharon
  
Shida77
on 9/16/09 2:48 am
You look AMAZING! I feel like we eat so little that we can eat the "good stuff" that doesn't make us sick every now and then.  I go out to eat and eat enchiladas, well a 1/4 of it! I still can't fathom burgers and stuff but I admit I have stolen a fry! I even tried nachos.  They do sell low-carb tortillas and they are a great substitute. 
          
saletiajohnson
on 9/16/09 3:40 am - anchorage, AK
San diego? Im going there next year. Damn... lol.
Im down about 47 pounds... 69 since my highest weight.
Im strugling, especially when I let myself get really hungry! But, I love
the weight loss. I feel great!
latinamommy
on 9/16/09 4:09 am, edited 9/16/09 4:09 am - Winslow, AZ
Your new picture is absolutely gorgeous!!!  
  I don't deny myself anything.  If I want something I eat it just not a lot of it.  Not that I am able to eat a lot even if I REALLY want it.  I eat healthy all of the time, always have believe it or not but I know from my past that if I deny myself something I will over-do it when I finally give in and have it.  So for me it is better to have a taste now than a whole bowl later.  I have had a few things I shouldn't have had but I don't feel guilty about it.  I am actually proud about it, proud that I was able to have a bite and pu**** away.  I have never been able to do that in my life but now I can and it's awesome!!
  This is an adjusment for all of us and I am thankful that we are all here to support eachother.  You are doing awesome!!  Keep it up!!

Edited to add that you are so right about the home made tortilla thing seeing as how my mom's are the best in the world!!!  YUMMMMY!!
Dominique

  

    
Shida77
on 9/16/09 6:29 am
And in the past I would just eat heated tortillas with butter.  Now the thought of that disgusts me.  I love to think about all of my "used to's" because that's all a thing of the past.  Last night my Dad bought burgers from a local BBQ joint and he didn't get me one.  I didn't care and I smiled.  All of this hardwork is going to pay off and I'm so excited!

For lunch today I went to a Sushi bar and I asked for the crab meat that they put in the rolls, which they gladly gave me for about $5.  DELICIOUS.
          
KristeMitchell
on 9/16/09 6:33 am
Thanks guys! I really appreciate all of your kind words and input.  I feel much better! I need to learn to relax and enjoy the process.  95% of my eating is "on protocol" like they say at the support group. So I will enjoy the 5% and not worry about it! Thanks again guys!

 
                  
medwards62
on 9/16/09 11:29 am
Your new avatar is beautiful!  I love San Diego and I agree that a life without the ability to have a tortilla once in a while is just wrong! 

I have been dealing with a lot of self-doubt lately.  Anytime I've dieted and hit a plateau, I have immediately dropped back into an old destructive pattern of starving myself.  I've always been of the frame of mind that if a ittle is good, then a lot must be better, or vice-a-versa...I amost killed my brothers once when I added a little more than a dash of hot sauce to my first batch of spaghetti (I was 10). :- )  

I started exercising 2 1/2 weeks ago (consistently) and my weight loss has all but stopped.  I lose in tenths now rather than pounds!  Anyway I have found myself fighting the urge to fall back into those old habits and cut my calories.  I have only recently been able to eat a full 1/4 to 1/2 cup of food at a meal.  I'm terrified of "snacking" to add calories and protein to meet my daily minimums.  I don't fight excessive hunger or the desire to eat the wrong kinds of foods.  My biggest enemy is in my head.

I did eat a small, cold piece of thin crust ham and mushroom pizza from Pizza Hut.  I couldn't get anything to go down without getting stuck, so I gave into the urge to eat the pizza.  It went down without getting stuck, but I was so bloated and full that the urge for pizza is gone.
    
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