Highest: 290 Surgery: 265 Last week: 197 This week: 194 Total Loss: 96 pounds Since Surgery: 71 pounds Since Last Week: 3 pounds - after staying the same for a few weeks...

Good Morning! I skipped last week because I was frustrated. Still frustrated but need to keep myself accountable too (I have been making some bad choices with food, I attribute it to stress eating as work has been near unbearable). I was down to 186 on Friday, however, back up to 189 today. It is almost my TOM so I am hoping to drop the 3-4 that I usually do around that time. I have 19 days until I go to Florida to visit. Can I lose 8-10 more? Hope so as I will live in a bathing suit that week...yikes! Here's my stats: Highest: 315 Surgery: 290 Today: 189 Total: 126 Since Surgery: 101

I was trying on clothes two days ago...And was so upset because the shirts in the "normal" section were so short. I have spent so many years covering my lower half, that I can't get used to the new lengths of shirts, and where pants now hit me. I still feel fat...see fat...and want to cover fat. We moved here (Japan) 4 months after my surgery...so I am not having to deal with compliments...the dramatic weight loss was over by then and no one knew me before. I don't know if it is a blessing or a curse. I am terrified of going home though. I think it will be hard to take compliments...especially since I see fat...and loose skin...and thinning hair now! I keep telling my mom that it isn't as dramatic as she thinks. I am 5'11'' --I will never be in a size 6! (She's 5'2'' and has no clue about weight in proportion to height! She was whispering to people that I weighed over 200 lbs...when I was pushing 300!) And, honestly, I want to say, "What was I before, chopped liver?" I am glad I feel better...but I hate it that beauty is measured in pounds. I loved your "Thanks, I feel better," response. I plan to steal that one. I am okay if this is as small as I get...but I still feel that I look the same. Thank you so much for posting. It is hard to be vulnerable...I am so glad to not be alone! Best wishes! Stacie

I bounce around on my weight too. Stay on track with your eating, exercise and water and it will go down. I think Susan is right, the salt and sodium has a lot to do with it. Heidi

Okay...panic has set in! My eating has NOT changed. My exercise has slowed a bit due to volleyball starting...but I thought that since I was playing volleyball 4 times a week, that I would still be okay. I could really use some words...I am hoping that it is PMS...but my schedule is soooo irregular it is hard to judge. (Yes, I've already taken a pregnancy test.) I am so sad and frustrated. I was soo close to being out of the 200s...for the first time since JUNIOR HIGH! I just can't figure out what is different. I guess I will go back to liquids for a few days to see if I can jump this hurdle.