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This is going to take forever but I need to write this and get thoughts, prayers! First topic I am dealing with. I have two boys one to a man who is so wicked I cannot explain but, he is. I married him because I was pregnant and regretted it as soon as I walked down the iale Long story short I broke it off and it started getting ugly. We had split visitation and one day he called at 10:30 at night and said I will never see him again.............DEVISTATED! I fought 4 years to get him back through our wonderful court system and won. Another tid bit is he raped his own sister and would rape me. Scary huh.. I am still dealing with that and I am away. Needless to say it takes a ton of money to go to court and bills are out the wazzooo! Attorney and court cost are so outrageous I cannot begin to tell you and everything that comes with it travel, time off work.....STRESS. But, I got my son. Second is October 15 2004 a drunk driver ran us off the road and from that I have had five surgeries. Tow shoulder surgeries and three hip surgeries and a whole hip replacement at 30 years of age......... But, I am here! The man had insurance and we are battle ling for our share of hospital and time off work and a ton of pain and suffering.......Not being there for so many things I can never take back! Well, attorney said ok he has 30,000 for this and that's the insurance limit and ours is 100,000 does anyone know that that's nothing for all the surgeries and that is what we get total!!!!!!! We are going to lose that house we live in and still not able to pay for anything! We have maxed out everything to battle to get my son and now my surgery to get back so I have this new hip for a longer time............. PLEASE God help me. Stupid thing is I have looked at my insurance to see if I would not be around what I could get for my family...STUPID! What are we going to do? I know there is positive but the thing is it's pushed behind all of this stuff. My husband who is so dear to me is so depressed and me well I am on a roller coaster ride that is making me sick! [email protected] if you would like to email me and here as well. I am so down what is there I can do but lose it all! Sitting here crying hardly can see to type! Family so maxed out as well helping which is another embarrassment! So sad Melissa

Melissa , First and formost just know that i am praying for you and your family for strenghth and guidence cuz lord knows i dont have the answers but just know there is someone out there puttin that extra word in for ya =) now secondly you and you hubby need to find you some help wether its medication , counseling or a lil of both just the surgery alone is an emotional roller coaster let alone with alll the other stuff you are dealing with i know several people who have needed help getting through this and remember there is always someone to listen around here and vent to so pour your heart out sometimes it just helps to get it all off your chest .... Take care and im sending you big hugs !!!! Missy

Hi Melissa, I'm so sorry to hear about your cir****tances. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Do you have a church that you can go to, especially a small Christian group that can help support you through this? That can definitely help. Will your insurance pick up the difference of the costs? Did you file a law suit against the other insurance company? I'm not an expert in this area but did have a friend in a similar situation. With caring thoughts ~Crystal

Melissa, You and your family have really been through the ringer, haven't you? It must be hard not to just "give up." But you can't do that to your husband and child/children. And I know you wonder where the strength will come from to make it through another day. Please know that you are being prayed for, and that somewhere, somehow, there will be light at the end of the tunnel. Hugs, Jezia

Melissa, I have been down the road you are on, and while I can't give you specific answers to your problems, I can tell you that God miraculously pulled me through. I have been married twice before my current marriage. I have two children with my ex-husband, my ex is Arab and moslem, and tried to kill me several times besides being on drugs, having affairs, etc. When I finally got away from him things got worse, he started stalking me, threatening to cut my head off and mail it to my mom etc. The worst part was that he threatened to take our children to Jordan (Middle East) and never let me see them again. I spent thousands of dollars that me and my current husband did not have, going in to debt, etc just to fight him in court. The court ordered pysch tests on me, my kids, my ex, etc and I had to pay for that also. It lasted for two years, but I ended up with custody of the kids and was financially devastated. I had three children from my previous marriages and I was pregnant with my fourth, I didn't work and my husband was making barely over minimum wage as a firefighter. I don't know how God did it, I still don't understand, but I threw myself at His feet, told him to take this burdern from me because I was going to die under it. It didn't happen overnight, but things just kept gradually getting better, money would show up from odd and unexpected places, things seemed to always go our way, always a blessing around the corner. It has been 10 years since then and we still have our problems but we now own two homes which is a miracle, I never thought we would be able to keep one home, let alone two. God is very good, he loves you with an unfanthomable love, trust Him, lean on Him, ask Him for all you need. Praying for you sweetheart! Jaime