Food Frinzes: Angels what are they???

I have been living the south beach diet for the past couple of months, yes I have lost some and then gained some back... Cheat or not too Cheat is the question.. I wanted to have Lap RNY so desperately because I can't afford the extra time off work as I only booked 2 weeks off for my surgery on July 31. My Surgeon has recommended I get off 60 to 70 lbs so I can have the Lap. So far I believe and according too the scales at the Hospital Emerg where my mom is says from 353lbs I am now at 313lbs... Lie or not I think that is better than where I was... They say the the scales are recabulated ever few days...so I really hope they are right.. But who knows. My life right now is really crazy... Too much going on. Between going to work and then to the hospital every day, I feel like I am doing two jobs... My mom is very seriously ill, and may not be with us long... I am spending as much time as I can with her at her side...I am really trying to remain on stride with my diet right now, but it is really hard.. There is other stuff going on that I am not prepared to go with right now.. Like family and Marriage, Finances and steps... So nothing is easy... This is for me and there is nothing that is going to stop me from going through with this. I want a life for the first time in my life... I can't change nothing that is happening so here I am... I could use probably an angel but I don't know what that intales. Family thinks I should postpone the Surgery, My mom who is passing told me I needed to do this.. God Love her and her wisdom... I cried so hard on Mothers Day and made my nose bleed... So they are wondering why she is hanging on, maybe it is her will or is it because she wants to wait until I have my surgery to make sure I pull through it and then she will be relieved enough to go, or is it because her first grandson is getting married at the end of Aug.. she wants to see him Married. No one person will ever know except her... My Sister thinks that I should post pone until the end of Sept., because of our mother and my son... But we all know, If I postone it won't happen because something else will come up... So here I am writing like a human being with heart, emotions, and feelings... so thanks for the ear.... I needed to vent a bit....

Arlene- Your plate is certainly full and I can really sympathize with you. My Mother died last year after a long hospital stay in intensive care. In fact -- Mama was in the hospital and died last July. I know it just tears your heart out. But, only you can make the decision whether to go ahead with the surgery or not. It sounds as if you have made your decision and if that is the case then stick to your plan and do not let anyone make you feel guilty for doing so. As to whether the surgery can be done la*****t I do not have a clue. I will be having DS surgery and it will be open. Talk to your surgeon. If having the surgery lap is really important to you perhaps waiting a little while is the best thing or perhaps your surgeon will tell you that he can do your surgery lap anyway. So far as getting an angel all you have to do is ask for an angel. Post a message on your state board, the main board, or on your surgeon's forum with "need angel" in the subject line and I am sure someone will volunteer to be your angel. You could even post it here but since all of us are having surgery this month it might prove difficult. Arlene, I am sorry things are so difficult for you right now. I am sorry your Mother is ill. She sounds like a very wise woman and it sounds as though the two of you have a very good relationship. I hope things start turning around for you soon and that you start seeing some relief. But in the mean time please come here and write about your feelings, we will be here to listen and give you a shoulder when you need it. Red

Arlene, God Bless You. We all sometimes think that we can't take another thing going wrong in our life. Yes, you do have a full plate right know and your life does not sound like a bowl of cherries. But just pray about it all and remember God doesn't give us more then we can handle. Your so close. Just do what is best for you and don't let anyone else make that decision for you. Your mother does sound like a very wise lady. I will pray for you both that you suffering is eased and that you make the right choice.Good luck to you and best wishes. Kathi