Hey Channan, You most definately are not an ass! Going through tough times makes us all want to pull in and get through the healing, so you are perfectly normal! So sorry to hear about your Sophie. That is tough to take on our best days. At least (and it's a small thing I know,) but you and your son have some time to talk about cancer, and it's results and make it a life lesson on death. And memories, and how special they are. Take some good pictures of Sophie and your son, you will be so glad you did in the future. Hang in there, The clouds will roll back and the sun will come out again. HUGS!!! Debbie

Anyone know of a support group near Shepherdsville, Bardstrown area? I would desperately like to attend one. Lesa

Staring at the single life myself...I have a question for you. Are you comfortable showing your body and all of it's new "character", for lack of a better word, to these potentials? Im not implying that you are out shackin up with whoever......but when you find a good one and you get to THAT bridge.....are you comfortable crossing it? Ever had a bad reaction? Just wondering. IM SCARED! HA! C

So....did she go?

Hello all, I feel so guilty that I have not been here to offer support to all you you wonderful people. You helped me so much along the way and when my life fell apart I dropped the balls I was juggling.....including this board. I was getting emails....cards....phone calls from many of you and I was in such a numb hazy fog that I ignored all of them. I appreciated them sooo much but couldnt lift my head up enough to reply. I was in a dark place trying to get through the holidays and trying to make sense out of all of this. Valentines day was hard....not for the loss of love, but because my husband filed for divorce on that day and I found out that my beloved Sophie.....my 8 yr. old boxer is dying from cancer....she has about 3 more months. This just makes one more thing my sweet little 8 year old son will have to endure this year. Here's an update on me....not feeling very "malibu" these days. As far as the weight loss goes.......Im 10 lbs below goal. I can't seem to halt the weightloss and I look a year older with every pound that slips off this body. This is a total loss of.....170 lbs! This is almost 30 lbs less than I weighed in Vegas....to give you a reference. I went from a size 24 top/28 pant....to a 4/6...of 5 in juniors. Plastics is on the way.....waiting for the divorce.....once we split the assets I will have the cash. I love you all and Im glad to see there is still life in this board. Channan (Malibu)