Thanks guys, I know I dont post much but I always read everyday. I am trying to focus on all his shortcomings but I still keep thinking WTF would someone not want me after 6 months for someone 15 years younger. Why did he date me in the first place? Why did he have to be so hurtful. There are ways to handle things and that hurt was certainly not it. In retrospect, I am trying to think about the things that I was not comfortable with. 1. He ALWAYS referred to all women, whether in real life or tv on how pretty or not they were (SHOWS SHALLOWNESS) 2. He always made fun of fat people (YET AGAIN MORE SHALLOWNESS, AND THIS ONE ALWAY**** A NERVE) 3. He was a stick in the mud, never wanted to go anywhere but sit in front of the tv and occasionally go to a bar on Sat. night. Nothing more.... 4. He NEVER ONCE bought me anything. I always sent him cards and would buy him presents and never got nothing back from him. 5. The sex was HORRIBLE, he basically was a penis that laid there. If I had not done everything, nothing would have been done. (I always thought, well I could work with this and teach him, maybe he didn't know what to do) So basically all my friends said I was settling, he was sweet, kind, courteous, caring and loving for those 6 months, until the demon came out Sat. night. And the fact that he said he is now "HARD" like all the b***tches he has been with since and including his wife. Now that makes you wonder why he had so many relationships and none of them stuck. I just want to get to the mad stage and get past the hurt. We spent so much time together everyday, 2 hours on the phone each night, so now my nights feel so empty, I asked a gfriend to spend the night tonite but she is sick. And in the mornings on the way to work we would always call and say Good Morning and this morning it was sooooooooooooo hard driving to work. Sue

Skinny Inside.... Well put girl! Andrea and I were just on the phone.....you came up in the conversation. We both think you're a fabulous addition to this board. Your thoughts are dead on girl!

Focus on YOUR needs: We are here for you. Dave

you are SO NEEDED... are you kidding... I look forward to hearing from you every single day- ..... missing you! jennifer

First of all, you look fantastic, and I just know you look even better without HIM on your arm. Try to be happy that he only wasted 6 months of your time and not a minute longer - you don't need him. Everything that he said to hurt your feelings just goes to show how insecure HE is in himself and has nothing to do with you, your age, or your looks. I know its hard to see that in the moment, but you will realize it later. I'm no psychic and certainly no expert in the dating field, but I'd be willing to bet that you'll meet a real man who treats you like a queen. Hope you feel better soon. xoxo