Life

I'm sorry I haven't been around much. Life has really gotten in the way. I've been working at my cake job, and it is very challenging to say the least. My older daughter (and her boyfriend and 4 month old son- my grandson) who was living with me, got mad at me (I still don't know quite why) and moved out yesterday while I was at work. Now I have no one to watch my daughter while I work. Egads. Dating sucks, but that has got to be put on the back burner anyway. My ex is begging me to get back together and I just don't know what to do. My life would certainly be much, much easier.... but would I be happy? I don't know. And I've somehow managed to gain about 5 pounds. WTF? I KNOW I haven't been eating excess calories, so I have no idea. Just wanted to check in with my favorite July people...I have not disappeared, just not feeling like posting much these days. Peter- I can soooo relate to your post. love you all Michele 268/162/140

I don't know what to say sweetie. I guess you just have to look hard for the upside........At least you have a job, everybody is healthy, you're a hottie! Is this helping? Hehe..... As for the ex.......Has he resolved the issues that made you unhappy the first time around? Don't get yourself into a an unhappy relationship for the sake of convenience. It will inevitably become very inconvenient to put up with the same crap all over again. You'll figure out the babysitting thing soon enough. As for the 5 lbs......I think a lot of us are stalling or seeing a small gain right now. As of yesterday, I had only lost 2 lbs in 20 days. This of course was full of..... up 2 down one, up 1 down 2.....blah, blah, blah! It hardly seems possible to gain weight when you do the math, but I swear, sometimes the numbers DO NOT add up. Chin up girl! It will turn around soon. Our lives ebb and flow. This too shall pass, C (((((((((Michele))))))))))

Thank you sweetie pie. Always a ray of sunshine around here. (((((((Channan))))))

Wonderful lady: Life goes on and on and on and... but opportunities continue to come our way...Michelle: new hot bod, challenging job , super new cyber friends you'll soon meet, and more options coming. Life's probably better than it was last June. We're with you. I use to give big bear hugs. Consider yourself pooh-hugged! I missed you and I always look forward to to your posts. Dave

Aww, thank you Dave. I'm so glad you joined this board. I can't wait to meet you! Michele

Listen to Channan - she asked the right question. I don't think that "I don't know" is the right answer to a be happy question. Maybe you do know? Love and thinking of you. Glad you checked in. -Pam

You're absolutely right Pam. I do know. I spent the day with the ex yesterday, he was helping me get this place back together after my daughter moved out. I didn't have any feelings for him whatsoever other than gratitude that he was there helping me. He is bending over backwards to be there for me- because he wants to get back together- but I am not feeling it at ALL. And so, I feel terribly guilty. I guess I better stop accepting his help if I am not feeling the loving feelings, I would hate to be accused of using him and I guess that's exactly what I'm doing. Ugh. This is so confusing.

((((((Big Hug)))))))))) I agree dating sucks Michele- It is hard work. But it's part of life, I guess. One word of advice-- okay One paragraph-- don't settle for anything now-- You have worked so hard over the past year to become the new you. Think carefully before you make any decisions that can negate that work. Love you! andrea