still at 159

yipee... i'm still at 159 pounds... and today i feel so thin.. i know i still have this "gut".. but i feel smaller.. head is really playing a game with me that's for sure.. never know if i'll feel still 280 or 160... i do feel weird though- back in '96 i took phentermine- and got to 165- smallest i had been in my adult life- i was in college (3rd year)- so what i was probably 20-21... but my stomach was smaller then- and i'm weighing less now but my stomach is still bigger... so maybe that's why i think i'm still 280? because i don't "sense it" i had these black windbreaker jogging pants.. that i wore all the time- i gave them to my mom when i grew too big for them- they're larges.. well at easter she gave them to me she can't wear them anymore- nor can my sister- so i'm shocked that i'm smaller than my mom and sister.. because i ALWAYS viewed my sister as the beauty queen of the family.. but i hadn't tried on the pants.. well- they look so tiny- no way could i fit into them yet.. no way- well- i was curious to see how far i was to wearing them- i slide one leg in- then the other and pulled them up with EASE.. and wouldn't you know it- they fit- plus they're already baggy.. huge on.. so why am i holding on to all my old clothes- i have my 4x's my 3x's my 2x's my 1x's- my 30 jeans- my 28, 26, 24,22, 20, 18, 16, and now my 14's that are all to big- i have 4 huge bins full of all these clothes that i can't wear.. am i holding on to them because i think i will fail and gain the weight back.. i don't ever want to be that big again.. i can't fail at this.. NO... so i should give away these clothes.. but i just can't bring myself to do it.... anyone else feel like that??? jennifer