When I don't lose weight for a long time...

...I think I shouldn't eat. So days like today I've had nothing to eat or drink all day, and ran longer than I should have. I know it's not healthy, and really only hurts me in the long run, but I'm so tired of not losing weight. It's like my previous eating problems will never go away. I need a hug. A lot of them. I want a boyfriend or just to be loved. And I think I'll just keep crying all night. *sigh*

Sweetiepie ~ You are not the only one. If you look down a couple posts I posted about the same thing. But, that being said, not eating and drinking actually makes it worse, and I am glad that you recognized it tonight. Sending you a great big cyber hug, wishing it could be the real thing. Nickie

Ashley- Big cyber hug for you honey- We love you! Andrea

Babydoll, Hey, I was too busy to get to the boards yesterday so this is the first time I'm seeing this. First of all, Nickie and I are afloat at sea in the same boat with you. I have to force myself or bargain with myself to eat. I know that sounds weird coming from someone who ate themselves into morbid obesity, but the tables turned somewhere in month 6. Please feel free to e-mail me on your difficult days. We can support one another. I also understand the "I need a hug......I want a boyfriend thing."! Don't get me wrong, I'm happliy married, but when we reach the stage where we feel attractive again, it's perfectly natural to want and need attention and love from the opposite sex. There is nothing more validating than having someone interested in you, lusting for you, or in love with you. This probably explains my raging hormones and high sex drive. College is hard! Finding "sponge-worthy" guys there is very difficult. You're probably too young to remember, but..... In Seinfeld, Elainne would interview potential dates to find the ones that were worthy of her discontinued brand of contraceptive sponges. Sorry, I guess it's not funny if you have to explain it! Ha!!!!!!!!! Hell, I was ignored, put down or made fun of by men (and women) for so long that I was terrified of walking in front a group of guys for the longest time. Then all of a sudden, men were opening doors for me, flirting with me, and otherwise realizing that I existed for something other than their cruel humor. (Of course I don't mean all men!) It's like I'm making up for lost time. As Andrea recently told me..."This weightloss stuff really messes with our minds!" Wow, aint that the truth!!! Ashley, we care for you so much here! We want to hear about your happy times and struggles too. I'm proud of you for bringing this into the open. Now we can help you babe! Loves, Channan

Thinking of you and sending you a cyber hug!! M.