I want to be fat again!!! 2-part

This feels like an intervention. Any minute I expect two men in long white coats to show up with a big needle and a straight jacket.

Oops! I wasn't finished with my post! Anywho--I have a serious history of eating disorders!! I was bulemic for 7 years! I am still fixing the teeth that rotted out years ago. I stopped making myself throw up the day that I found out I was pregnent. Didn't need any help-morning sickness! This is when my weight spun out of control. I did finally get it under control though. I had not gained a pound for a year and a half prior to surgery. I'm sure that my history makes me more prone to future eating disorders. Yes, I disclosed this all to my PCP, Surgeon and the Therapist that administered my psych evaluation. I'm all bummed out now!! Love to all!!! C Leigh

Channon- Don't be bummed out-- just be aware! You are fine..... Your doing well, and we love you soooo much! Hang in there.

LOL I'd be careful not to answer the door today! You're fine - don't worry! HUGS Kimberly

C Leigh - Look at your pictures!!!!!! You'll see it, I promise. As to the food part, you need to do it to stay healthy, I'm sure this is just a phase. Hang in there girl!!! Sharon

Channon- take one of your before pictures, full length, and put it next to one of your pictures now (just like I did on my profile). You WILL see a difference. Anyone who has seen that picture of mine has said OH MY GOD. I'm not kidding. Most people say "I don't remember you being that big" and I'm like, "Yeah, I guess I hid it well". I soooo want to get into jogging. But when I try to run, it hurts. Did you hurt at first too? ((hugs)) you're doing great beautiful!! Michele

yeah, Michele, that is my problem.I have tried (briefly) to run, and it hurts. I guess I just need to tone up? Channon, I know we will SEE our weight loss. We have to be patient with ourselves, and that is the hardest part. We expect so much, b/c we have had this life altering surgery, and it scares us that we will fail at this. Together, we can all make it. I sound like some kind of motivational speaker. lol

I read somewhere that if you fill plastic bags with sand in 10 lb increments and pin them to a shirt - you can feel the extra load you use to carry around. This is a great reminder of the stress it causes on the body.... I want to share that at my support group meeting... GOod luck... PS I go thorugh spurts all month- some days can eat a lot other days barely enough....I make sure I take the vitamins and increase to iron tabs around that time of the month to help... just something to share... Pattiann