NOT HAVING A GOOD DAY AT ALL!!

I am 5 months post op. I have lost 86 1/2 lbs so far. I am just having one of those days where I feel like no matter what I do it isn't going to be right. I am depressed about the Holidays because money is tight for us and I couldn't do much shopping. I am on a Plateau with weight loss and I am freaking out because I still need to lose alot more weight and I am afraid I won't lose enough. My new year's resolution is to follow this surgery program to a tee and do what I am supposed to do. I did not come this far to give up now. To top it off I work in a Dr's office and I see new babies all the time. My husband and I want a baby, but I have severe Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome and I am afraid that even after my weight loss we can not have a baby due to my health. I just depresses me to see some people so happy and I wonder why that can't be me. Thanks for listening, I just had to vent... Merry Christmas to everyone..

Melissa, I know nothing I can say will make you feel any different...I just want you to know you are not alone. I love Christmastime... all the holiday festivities going on...all the programs on tv...everything, BUT, I also have grown to not like celebrating it very much anymore. My grandma was a HUGE part of my life (she had legal guardianship of me since I was 12)...my husband and her and I would always make sure to go to Battle Creek to look at the lights, but now that she is gone I have only gone one year since then and she passed away in February of 2001. I had an appointment for her, my mom, my son and I to have our pictures taken in December of 2000 and she was stubborn and her illness was taking hold of her and she said she didn't want to be "forced" to have her picture taken. I keep thinking of that at this time of year. I wanted to have a 4 generation picture taken...now that will never happen. The holidays are fun but tough too...somehow I work through it every year though...I think I fight more with my husband at this time of year. I don't really know why but I think part of it is because...I just don't think of Christmas like I used to. Christmas is about family, and a big chunk of that left me in 2001. Mandie

Melissa, I'm having a tough time with Christmas this year too. My mother and father, both in their 80s, are ill. Dad is in a nursing home, and I'm not sure he will get well. He is suffering from severe depression in addition to some physical issues. Mom is homebound right now, because she re-injured her back running to the hospital and nursing home every day to see my dad. I am light years behind in Christmas stuff, because I was gone to help them for 8 days out of the first two weeks of this month. I know I should be happy they are both here to see Christmas. It's really hard right now, though; because they just aren't the same. I am seeing my ounselor this afternoon for the first time in a month, and I am hoping she can give me a better perspective. I hope you can find a way to enjoy the holidays. Maybe God has a plan for you that you don't even know about yet. Linda

Ladies I know how yall feel, I am with you guys. My mom was a HUGE part of my life and she passed away very suddeny 3 years ago in February. Christmas was her favorite time of the year and we always went all out. My 25 year old daughter who lives with me is going to be having a baby any day now that she is giving up for adoption. My 22 year old daughter who has a precious 10 mo. old is living with a white trash pig who beats her and treats her like **** but she wont leave him and to top it off she is 6 months pregnant again with no job or no money or anything. I am trying so hard to be upbeat and get through the holidays but I do empathize with everyone here that it is hard this time of year. Sue