Anybody Else Grazing?

I'm having a rough time. Let me start by saying that I have lost 63 pounds since my pre-op diet started on June 20th (Surgery was July 13th). I am so happy with my loss, but I'm fearing now that I am sabotaging myself. For the last month or so I have been eating more and more, and I'm talking grazing not at a sitting. I still can't eat very much at all at a sitting. After I'm full and drink my cup of decaf tea, I eat again, whether it's wheat thins or popcorn. I think I went so long being uncomfortable when I ate that when I was finally able to eat again, I'm liking it. I feel so stupid, I paid for the surgery myself and I'm not eating right. I see other posts of people saying they forget to eat? WHAT THE HECK? NO WAY!!! How is that possible???? It's on my mind at all times. I am trying to concentrate on drinking more which will keep me too busy to eat I know but is anyone else having this problem? I work at a computer all day and find myself getting back into my old habits. I know that the loss will eventually stop and if I don't change things I will start gaining. When I first had the surgery, I used to read these exact posts and think how stupid people were to eat crap after going through this but look at me now. I would really appreciate not getting flamed for this but maybe a spoonful of whoopass would help. Maybe I'm overthinking this. Yesterday for instance I had my protein drink for breakfast, about a cup of dry Quaker oatmeal cereal, 2 small (quartersize) 3-Musketeers, 3/4 of a Wendy's chili, about 7 wheat things with easy cheese, some jerky nuggets, another 1/4 cup of cereal, another protein shake, and some deli turkey.

JANICE, DON'T FEEL BAD I'M THE SAME WAY, BUT I DO EXERCISE ALOT IT COULD BE BECAUSE I'M LOSING ALOT OF CALORIES. BUT GIRL.......! I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN.ITS BUT YOU KNOW WHAT WE STILL HAVE LOST ALOT OF WEIGHT. SO LETS NOT BE TO HARD ON OURSELFS. CONGRATS ON YOUR WEIGHT LOSE. WE SHOULD BE ING.

Thank you for the praise. I am very proud of myself for the most part, just scared for the future.

JANICE, DON'T FEEL BAD I'M THE SAME WAY, BUT I DO EXERCISE ALOT IT COULD BE BECAUSE I'M LOSING ALOT OF CALORIES. BUT GIRL.......! I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN.ITS BUT YOU KNOW WHAT WE STILL HAVE LOST ALOT OF WEIGHT. SO LETS NOT BE TO HARD ON OURSELFS. CONGRATS ON YOUR WEIGHT LOSE. WE SHOULD BE ING.

JANICE, DON'T FEEL BAD I'M THE SAME WAY, BUT I DO EXERCISE ALOT IT COULD BE BECAUSE I'M LOSING ALOT OF CALORIES. BUT GIRL.......! I KNOW WHAT YOU MEAN.ITS BUT YOU KNOW WHAT WE STILL HAVE LOST ALOT OF WEIGHT. SO LETS NOT BE TO HARD ON OURSELFS. CONGRATS ON YOUR WEIGHT LOSE. WE SHOULD BE ING.

No, I'm not. I am at the stage where I take 2 or 3 bites of something and I am done. Last night I made spaghetti for my family, with Kielbasa sausage. I took 3 bites, and it just didn't taste good to me. So a little later on I made one piece of peanut butter toast, on whole grain bread- and it made me sick. Had to go to bed at 7 o'clock. Food is just not appealing to me anymore. But I'm sure that will change!

Janice, Ireplied to you by email because I couldn't get in to the forum, but that is fixed now so I will reply here as well. I am grazing some too and it concerns me. I too am falling into some old bad habits that I need to stop before they overcome me. One bad habit that I developed three weeks post op was to grab a string cheese for some protein whenever I went out in the car. It helped to keep me satisfied. Now, I fear I eat too many of them. Another bad habit I had was when the dogs bark late at night to go out I usually would snack while waiting for them to come back in after doing their business. For a while there I did okay and would have just a little something but now it has gotten to be a little more. I need to let the dogs out and make them go out before I go up to bed and then they won't be as likely to wake me up. Another bad habit is eating nabs. It was that I could eat one and feel satisfied. I enjoy those because I would not get nauseas from them but now I find I eat much more than one....so those need to go out. Anyone else doing these kids of things? I am going to try to plan my meals and snacks better and see if I don't improve. Pam

Janice, I noticed that you said you drink your tea after eating and then you eat more. You may be flushing the food out too quickly after eating. Are you letting your food sit in your stomach for a while before you take a drink? This has absolutely been the hardest part for me to master (still haven't). Congrats on your weight loss, C Leigh

Thank you for your reply and good idea, however I always wait more than 1/2 hour before drinking my tea. Otherwise that would definitely be it. Thanks for your input.

Janice- I am having the same problem.. I am eating better things, but I have noticed I am doing the stress eating thing a bit more often- rather than for hunger. My therapist (gosh that sounds so Woody Allen) told me to keep a food diary- include mood, so maybe I will stop when I realize why I am eating. I also notice, if I get all my water in, I spend more time drinking than eating. I think as our body recovers, it gets more challenging and we have to try to break our behaviors. Not easy, but this board helps. Ciao, Andrea