I Feel........

I feel fat today....like everything I have lost is back....I just feel fat... I ache all over today too. Nothing out of the ordinary, usual walks, daily activities, just hurt everywhere....I can't wait til my friend is outa here!!!! I don't even care that the scale hasn't moved, not depressed, just ache and feel fat. Sorry just had to vent....... Mandie

I love to write poems. It is weird, but they are something that just pop into my head, it is like all of my thoughts get caught up with each other and then...BAM outa nowhere I have 3 or 4 poems written. Here is the one I just wrote after I finished posting about feeling fat... ...Who am I Today... Today is not unlike any other day Today is just ordinary It is just too bad that what ordinary is Is something that I have always tried to keep hid My body, my frame, all part of my name My unsung territory of whom I am I am fat plain and simple There's no question in that When I was a child I used to have dimples They went away but the fat, well it stayed I was given a tool A second chance at life at it's best I thank my doctors, nurses and their staff But most of all I thank my mom For her words of encouragement For without my mom I would not be here To put out these words trying to be kind and sincere So thank you to mom and everyone else For those who are here in spirit They are here nonetheless My childhood was great, don't get me wrong I just wish I'd had less of me around More rides on my bike, more hikes at the beach More boyfriends and plane 'ole happiness to keep My family has been great True love unconditionally That is why we are chosen from God In the beginning He knows where we belong And where we fit best Even if it isn't always so glorious And with all these thoughts To thine own self be true Don't ever let anyone Change you but you! Mandie Roberts 10-14-05

WOW, what a fabulous poem! I LOVE it!! Thank you for sharing! Lisa

Thanks for the poem Mandie-- It was great.

Hi Mandie, I so feel how you are feeling, too. I feel fat, achey, and I can't stop snacking. And I, too have a monthly visitor. What a drag, huh? I almost cried when I read your message, since I have been feeling the same way. Good luck to us both. We'll get through this! Take care, Lisa

Mandie first of all, what a great poem. Some of it was me as a child too!!!. I don't think your alone in how your feeling cause I too feel the same way. Lisa said "we'll get though this" and she's right!! We will!!! I too have my monthly and have had it for over 9 days, again. I went through this the first one I had after WLS. That one was really bad and this one isn't a peach either. I think it had alot to do with how were feeling. I know it has to do with my feelings which are all over the place. I called my OBGYN and he wasn't in, he'll be in on Monday and hopefully he'll be able to help me stop this thing. Good luck to ALL of us!! HUGS, Cheri

MANDIE Well put into words.. I think you grasped a piece of all of us... That is wonderfull... KEEP UP THE WRITING! Very Much enjoyed and understood!!! LVOE AND HUGS TO YOU THROUGH THIS JOURNEY!!!!!!