Emotional moments
Has any one had some emotional moments? Lately I've been feeling alot of things that I didn't expect. Instead of seeing the face that everyone says is looking so thin, and the cheekbones, I see sagging skin under my chin.
I'm not always thrilled about what I'm seeing in the mirror. And especially unclothed! (Not that I was all that thrilled before).
Maybe it's because the face I saw before was familiar to me, the body was the same one I'd lived with for many years.
Don't get me wrong, it's thrilling to put on smaller clothes and give away the ones that are absolutely too big. And it's thrilling when the scales move on down, but it's inside my head that I'm having some problems.
I feel better than I have in my entire adult life physically. I have more energy, and am off most all of the meds I took for obesity related
health issues. But it's what's going on in my head lately that's getting to me.
Kaitlain
July 5, 2005
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I was worried about a few wrinkles near my eyes.... in the beginning...
Make-up helped. I cut my hair a bit to accentuate them more... People began telling me I looked confident and happy... You can too... We are so damn programmed to look at the negative and feel awful....
Look at the positive...I keep waiting for my collarbone to appear... so I do not focuse on my eyes or sagging anymore...
HUGS your beautiful and your pic is pretty... Will be a HOT WLS Babe in no time...
Kaitlain,
You are beautiful! I wish I had hair like that! Anyhow, this is normal. The hormones are fluctuating LOTS right now because the fat you are losing is releasing them into your blood stream. Fluctuating emotions are happening b/c of this. My doc has me on Zoloft to help regulate my emotions at least for the first 6 months. It does help, when I don't forget to take it! Actually, I don't forget, it's just so damn hard to swallow pills sometimes! lol.
It's ok to feel this way. I too, look in the mirror and fail to see what others see. I am so impatient with myself.
We will make it to our goals, and we will see how beautiful we are!
Hugs,
Cristi
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Kaitlain,
Hi I want you to know one thing, WE are beautiful people no matter what we look like. You must remeber that OK. . I too look at my face to see my jaw bone and also can't wait for the colar bone to show I know I must sound nuts. but I'm looking forward to it. So start to love yourself again no matter what OK. You are beautiful.
Cheri
Thanks for the encouragement. Most people don't understand, and have no concept of the things that I'm going through. They simply think I should be totally elated at the weight loss and I am. I felt that the surgery was a success when I walked out without any diabetes or blood pressure meds. The weight loss was just the bonus. I am very grateful and feel blessed that I had this opportunity, but...there are still alot of things ...mentally...physically, that I don't exactly know how to deal with.
Kaitlain
Lap RNY
July 5, 2005
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