Just can't catch a break!

I was set for surgery on July 12, but found out today that it has to be postponed because I have to see a specialist about some abdominal pains that I have had for about 4 years. I know it is for the best, but it's still frustrating. Nearly 3 years of fighting insurance companies and thinking it would never happen and then I finally get approved. And then, as quick as it happened, it was taken away. I've been very emotional lately. I just feel like crying all of the time. I wonder if this is what I'm supposed to do. I wonder if this "glitch" is the sign that I shouldn't be having the surgery. I am so stressed out with life in general and now this! I don't know what to think. I don't know who to turn to. My husband can't understand. I have two sisters that have had the surgery, but one didn't have to fight too much for it and the other had to do a little fighting, but both had their surgeries and there were no other complications. I'm just scared! I've had surgeries before, but I've never been this scared. I just don't understand how I'm feeling. I'd appreciate any imput you all could give me. Thanks!

I'm so sorry for you. Just keep on keepin' on. We don't understand HIS time table... it will be worth the "weight" in the end. God Bless

I'm trying to remember that "He" is in control, but sometimes my earthly desires and emotions get in the way and just plain confuse me. It just seems like every time I think of the surgery I start to cry. I wish I could just understand that! Any way, thank you! I wish you well in your weight loss journey!

Try reading Psalm 18. I re-read it today and it has been a literal "God-send" Email if you want. I'd love to hear from you. Sue

It's normal that your scared. And I am sorry for all the stuff changing things around. It may seem awful right now but maybe there is a reason that it's happening. You know things always work out for the best...even if you don't know it at the time. I was ticked because my surgery was put off from mid July to the end of July. I was freaked because I went from having 6 weeks to recover until school starts (I go back to work) to 4 weeks. But then my husbands time off situation changed- and it works out GREAT with the new date. It wouldn't have worked out with the old date. So do something fun and pamper yourself. You are on an emotional rollercoaster---but it will get better soon! Hang in there! Don't give up!!! Linda

DEAR PAULA; IM NOT SURE WHAT A COMFORT I CAN BE, I'M SORRY ABOUT YOUR CANCELLATION. I NOW HOW DEVISTATING IT IS!!!!!!!! I CAN HONESTLY SAY I FEEL YOUR PAIN, LITERALLY!!!!!!! MY SURGERY IS SET FFOR JULY 15,2005, I TOO HAVE BEEN FIGHTING FOR ABOUT 5 YEARS 3 INSURANCE COMPANIES-TILL THIS JUNE. OUR CURRENT INSURANCE IS THREW MY HUSBAND S JOB (UNITED HEALTH CARE) MY HUSBAND STATED HAVING SECOND THOUGHTS ABOUT HIS NEW CAREER CHANGE- WAS TLKING ABOUT QUITING. IN APRIL ASKED ME WHAT I WANTED FOR MY 41 B-DAY~REPLY ALL I WANT IS TO BE ABLE TO HAVE MY SURGERY~HIS REPLY WELL GET STARTED,SO I DID. HE CONTINUED TALKING ABOUT QUITING I ASKED TO PLEASE HOLD ON TILL I GET MY SURGERY!! JUNE 9 DR.S OFFICE SENT IN PAPERWORK FOR APPROVAL(I TALKED TO THIER INS GUY ABOUT MY HUSBAND-HE SAID LETS HURRY AND GET APPROVED -I SAID LETS GO) JUNE 24 GOT MY APPROVAL. SAME DAY HUSBAND QUIT HIS JOB. WENT FOR PREOP BLOODWORK FOR SURGERY ON THE 6 OF JULY- ON THE 8 OF JULY HOSPITAL FINANCIAL CONSOLUR CALLED AND SAID SURGERY CANCELLED DO TO INS!!!!!!!!!!! OH NY GOD IT WAS AS THOUGH SOMEONE VERY NEAR AND DEAR TO ME HAS JUST PASSEDAWAY... I AM IN MORNING LITERALLY. I CALLED DR.S OFFICE AND TLKED TO INS GUY TOLD HIM WHAT HOSPITAL SAID THAT SYRGERY WAS CANCELLED HE SAID NO IT'S NOT!! HE SAID HE WOULD CALL THEM AND TALK TO THEM AND CALL ME BACKTHAT DAY. THAT WAS ON FRIDAY. AT 355PM IHADN'T HEARD FROM HIM, SO I CHECKED MY VOICEMAIL- HE LEFT A MESSAGE THAT SAID HE HAD TO LEAVE THE OFFICE IN A FEW MINUTES BUT AS OF NOW NOTHING HAD CHANGED AND TO CALL HIM ON MONDAY. PAULA GIRL 'WHAT DOES THAT MEAN?' SO I'VE BEEN IN MORNING THIS WHOLE WEEKEND DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.5 DAYS PRE-OP. I'M PHYSICALLY ILL,MY HEART IS BREAKING AND MY HUSBAND SAYS HE UNDERSTANDS BUT I DON'T THINK HE HAS A CLUE!!! ANYWAY I WILL SAY A PPRAYER FOR YOU-BELIEVE IN THE POWER OF PRAYER WRITE BACK IF YOU LIKE-LET ME KNOW HOW THINGS WORK OUT FOR YOU.