This does not seem real

I know that every one has second thoughts, wonders if they are making the right decision the whole 9 yards. Does anyone ever wonder if this is for real? I mean, I think that I am the only one on the face of this earth that is going through this right now. I know that I have all of you guys and you are all in the exact same boat as me but it still does not feel real. I almost feel like this board is a joke (NO, do not take that the wrong way). I feel like someone made this whole site up to play with my mind, to let me think that there are other people out there but in reality, I am alone. Sound strange? I really feel like there are peple laughing at my expense right now. Nancy

Nancy, this is not TRUMAN... it is TRUE MAN!! We are so close to realizing a start again that it seems that we can't be that close. You are not crazy, just nervous and scared. Hang in there and see. It will get better. Sue

Nancy, It's REAL! I have not had my surgery yet, but I am amazed to learn that there are so many who have had the surgery, have lost so much weight, and that they even provide pictures to illustrate the changes they've gone through. Sometimes I wonder if they are making up some of their stories, but then some have been so honest as to even provide photographs of their skin before and after the surgery, even with the scar tissue after the surgery, and most especially pictures of them before and after the weight losses. I'm not laughing at you, I feel your pain. And I want you to experience HOPE and confidence that things can and will go well for you as you pursue your goals. Hang in there sister! Ken P.

Hi Nancy, I go in tomorrow for surgery, and I am feeling a ton of emotions right now! One of the emotions is disbelief, so you are not alone. Keep using the boards - they are incredibly valuble and supportive. Love, Colleen

Oh My Gosh! I'm from Mokena, Il also. I went to highschool at Lincoln Way High School and raised my children there. We lived on Hilllgate Road. I now live in Fayetteville Ar. After I remarried after 8 years of being divorced after a 23 year marriage we moved here. You know starting over etc. We love it here however I miss my good friend there and my son and family. He is a Mokena Fireman. Anyway I for sure am real. I have not done a story thing yet cause I havn't figued out how. It feels so good to hear from someone from Mokena. My daughter had the surgery in Dec. 2004 and has lost 100 lbs and feels and looks great. Oh; if you add up the years of marriage and divorce and this 16 year marriage your right I pretty old 63. I go to the surgeon on 21st. and have already done my pre op test with a tentative surgery date of the 27th. I am going for it no matter how scared I am. It is a matter of walking for me. My knees are shot and the knee surgeon will not do surgery unless I get some weight off. I have several other weight related health issues. I don't know your age but I can tell you for sure as you get older your body can not stand to carry morbid obesity weight. The very best to you. If you want to talk just email me. [email protected] regards Cil

When is your gurgery date

Priscilla- I am three days before you, on the 18th

I feel that way. I have waited so long for this that now it just doesn't seem real!!!! I know how you feel!! It's not a joke and the day is coming really fast now. Just a few to go.

It is strange that I just read your post. I was just sitting outside and thinking. I was thinking OMG, this is for real! I am about to go through such a life changing event. I am scared that I wont be able to go through it. It seems like such hard work after the surgery, but I like you am amazed by everyone eles true life stories and am in awe that I am going to be one of those before/after pics. I have been heavy my whole life and I keep wondering what it will feel like to be "normal". What will I look like? How will others view me? will I be happy with my life post op? Will I have lost of complications? Will I wake up? What if I can't lose the weight, etc. All this is running through my mind. I think this is normal but we all have to go through these emotions. Every day that is closer to "the date" I get more nervous. Once I made this decision, I felt like "okay, let's do this NOW before I change my mind!" I almost feel like I did right before I gave bith, this cannot be happening to ME. but it is and like that moment for me changed my life for the better and I can only hope that this "re-birth" of mine will change me forever as well. hang in there, it will all happen soon enough.

Count me in !!! I am also wondering if it is all real, but also finally it is dawning on me that it is! After all this waiting and postponements and a hospitalization for an infection, my doctor gave the go ahead today for next week on the 9th! YES!! It is finally approaching! It was like I was in some strange time warp (during the postponements), where time dragged on and on, and I didn't seem to be gaining any ground. Now all of a sudden, my surgery day, the 14th is speeding rapidly towards me and now, up is going the anxiety. Happy anxiety, if there is such a thing. It might progress to nervous anxiety, but I am not there yet! But should I panic? I am not packed and I need to buy new underwear for the hospital!!! That may be all that is left on my things to do, but I must rush to do it! LOL! Nancy, I AM REAL! And now I know that you are real too!! And we are really hanging on while the boat we're in is about to hit white water! We will make it through to the other side!!! Lisa