intros, jitters, and thought

Hi! Just wanted to introduce myself. My name is Tammy and I'm from AR. I'm 35 and will be having a lap RNY on July 27th. Here are some thoughts that are going through my head and I am just wondering if anyone else is thinking the same... ...at times I feel selfish for having this surgery, I mean what if something happens to me and my daughter is left without a mother. It could have all been avoided if I didn't have the surgery. ....maybe I didn't try hard enough to get the weight off. ...do you feel like since people have found out that you are have wls that they stare at you and the food that you have on your plate? Now here are some happy thoughts... What I look forward to after my WLS... 1. Buying a smaller bra/panties 2. Wearing a swimsuit in front of other adults. 3. Keeping up with my daughter. 4. Getting on a roller coaster without the fear of being too big to ride. 5. Shorts that don't ride up in the crotch. 6. Joint pain and hypertension gone. 7. Getting in and out of bathtub with ease. 8. My daughter never being ashamed of my size. 9. A revived sex life. 10. Shopping in the regular size clothes section. Anyone want to add to the "can't wait till" list? Have a great day everyone! Tammy 35 days and counting

Hi Tammy- it looks like I am going in 2 days before you.... yikes! When I really start to think about it- I go through the same emotions/thoughts that you mentioned. I also have been doing the what if's like crazy! My biggest what if: What if I end up having complications and I end up in pain, misery and in the hospital left and right when right now- I am all around healthy. (except the weight, obviously) I counter these thoughts by reading profiles and the message boards. I think that the biggest thing is the fear of the unknown. We don't know how things will be after the surgery. I could probably toss and turn every night until surgery going through all of the problems that could happen. But then I also think about the good side of it all- like not having back, hip and knee pain. Keeping up with the kids. all the cute clothes. not getting winded when I walk up a flight of stairs. Not having to take another shower at night because I am sitting in my own sweat without having done anything. I could go on..... alas, I need to take a because I stink! 33 more days.... Good luck with your journey!

Hi Tammy, welcome to our little corner. I'm sure everyone here is going through what you are right now. I'm sure as the days grow closer for me I will just about go out of my mind with worry. Right now, I've been waiting 2 weeks for my official approval. I can't think past that. I'm afraid to get my hopes up or think too far ahead. But I have pretty much the ame wants that you listed. Good luck and God bless.

Tammy, congrats...I have a date of July 13th. I feel the same way...I am a newly wed and have a 13 year old...I am worried for him and for her..but I counter it with what would happen if I don't. Things I can't wait for....sitting in a movie theater seat comfortably, flying and not asking for a belt extender....and talking about baths...how about taking a bath and having the water actually flow around me...not me having to lift a side to left the water drain or fill. Best of luck!!!! I am cheering for you. http://www.obesityhelp.com/mbgraphics/emoticons/jump.gif Kim

Hi Tammy I too am having all the what if's!!! I am very confident in my surgeon but it is the post op that scares me! I just try to put the bad thoughts out of my mind and keep focused on the good thoughts. I know that what we are going through is pretty normal but it doesn't make it any easier. I am schedule for surgery on July 25th. I am just taking it day by day. I actually put a goal out and decided to put 400 miles on my bike before surgery. I want to be in the best health possible going into this and hope that it helps with the recovery. Its like little head games that I play with myself....makes me feel a bit crazy at times! ha ha But I have my hubby peddling right in front of me and he acts pretty sane so I don't think I have went over the edge yet. ha ha...... Can only imagine what I will be like in four more weeks! YIKES!! But it will all be good in the long run!!!! Hang in there and know that your not alone in your jitters!