Hey July Babes.................
I've been looking everyday, but haven't had much time to post. I got a new job this week, so I'm in training. At home; my daughter who is 18 moved out 4 weeks ago (she didn't want to live by our rules) and needless to say I've been going crazy. She's living at my sister's house about ½ hour away. My boys are 4 and now that the weather is nice outside they want to be outside all the time. I'm downsizing my life and making things better (easier) for me; I got rid of my 55 gallon fish tank about 2 weeks ago and I might have found a home for our dog I will know more by next week if they are going to take her or not. With all the stress in my life; I started to lose weight again; I have lost 4 more lbs so I'm currently at 166lbs and size 8 pants and small/medium shirts. I'm walking 2-3 days a week sometimes more depending on how much time I have. I'm not sleeping at all and so I'm seeing a doctor about that. I average 3-4 hours of sleep a night and I'm not drinking my water or getting in my vitamins. I'm a mess right now but I'm trying and the doctors are trying to help me but they want to out me in the hospital for a few days but I don't have time (husband works afternoons and I have the twins at home yet) and I need to be home by 4 to pick them up from daycare and since our daughter moved out we are not talking to any family members so I don't have anyone to help out so until I pass out of lack of sleep or die (ok just kidding) this is what I've been up to.
Something exciting though.....a bunch of friends and our husbands went out for dinner and drinks, dancing and I had a guy hit on me and buy me drinks all night even though my husband was right there. We danced and he even tried to make a move but I stopped it, but it was great that someone wa****ting on me (husband didn't even care; he knew I was going home with him that night).
Hope everyone is doing ok. Please post again everyone, I miss this place.
Tammy
I am doing good. The doctor put me on xanax so most of the time I am in my own world...........He said I was having panic attacks 24/7....was I under any stress....lol lol lol.........Only god knows what I am going through.... I am still hanging between 95- 99 lbs. Once in a blue moon I might hit 100. If I don't use the bathroom for a few days....The skinny jokes and the mean @ss comments are getting the best of me. I get looked at a lot and I was always looked at for being so fat now for being to skinny. Will this world ever, ever stop being so mean. Most of the time it is women. I got a hate e-mail on my mail at work...........She said I thought I was all that. I said yeah and then some........I am not going to let people bring me down. I told her not to many 42 year old people had a bod like this............And stop trying to hate up on me.....oh god don't get me started...........God bless and have a blessed day.....
Amy
No one is ever satisfied with us. It's a catch 22! I've actually gained about 5 pounds... on purpose... and people are STILL telling me, "Don't you dare lose another pound", or "You look so thin... are you OK?" GRRRRRRRRRRR I DON'T look too thin, no where near it. I think, and most people think I look healthy! My clothes from last year are a little tighter, (big stressor) but I know I am where I need to be. Just gotta get my mind there too! LOL
We are considering moving again... waiting on a job contract as we speak. (for hubby) and I am SO looking forward to it! I know that the new friends I make will not have known me at almost 300 pounds and so I will not be such a shock to their eyes. Know what I mean? I really do think that's all it is. Shock Factor!
Anyway, hang in there...
HUGS
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