my freaking heart

I have no clue what is going on with my heart. Last week I had a bad pain in my chest. It went to my collar bone. It last for about 15 mins. I went to the E.R. here in little albemarle. The wrote on my paper unknown cause. They did't know a damn thing. It pissed me off. I didn't know anything when I left. I went for a stress test on Wednesday I will know the results on Monday.My mom died of a heart attack when she was only 45 years old. I am 42 and it scares me. My brother had a bad stroke at 41. My dad has had open heart done 2 times on him before he was 40. The 40's are not good to my family. So I got so scared. I cried and cried. If it anit one freaking thing it is another. I am so freaking sick of being sick. I felt good for like 6 weeks and then back to my hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Have I been so mean in my life that I am getting what I deserve. My work is so pissed at me for being out so much. I know I am going to get the boot soon. I work for the county and they don't play. I am just way to sick to try to hold down a job. But I am single with 2 kids. The doctor in the ER ask me how was I even able to get out of the bed. IF he only knew....... At the ER my blood pressure was 68/40. Even with running my ass off it still only got up to 80/50. The man that done my test was worried. One doctor puts me off on another. Because they don't know what is wrong. And I am just tired of running back and forth..... I have a $30. co pay when I go. It is adding up like a mo fo......Sorry I just had to let it out............I love you people and hope all is well with you. God bless....And sorry this is so long. Please pray for me. Amy

I'm so sorry you are going through this and hope everything will turn around for you. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers..

Geesh girl.... could you get on disability? You're in my prayers! HUGS K