Ok I am angry

Hi Andrea, first off, I am not offended by your post at all. I am one of those struggling to lose that last 15-20 pounds. Up until this last month, I had lost some each month and now I have been the same, up a couple and down a couple. It stresses me some days, and I know I should be so happy with my success, and I am, but ... I just want those last pounds off. Then I stop and think, that at this weight, I am comfortabley in a size 10 and why is that bad or not enough? It's not, it's great, and I have not been a size 10 since junior high school! That being said, I know I need to stop obcessing about that magacial number but I still do. My biggest problem is I have gotten complaciant with the protein intake, water (I hate water now!!) and exercise is not like I was doing. So, I guess I just need the motivation to get back to the "basics" and try a little harder, and yes, I do struggle with body image. So all this rambling being said, I'll take that cyberhug anytime! Cause I can always use it. And I agree, Let's Talk! it always helps! Debbie

Debbie- Thank you so much- You put my thoughts into words much more eloquently than I did. Thank you! (((((hug))))))

Are you kidding me Andrea? Your words woke up this board and got everyone to come out and "talk". That's wonderful. The neatest thing is we are all not alike, but going through the same journey. And we do and will always have different experiences with it, and yet will always have that common thread. Thank YOU!! and back at you with the {{{hugs!}}}

Even as sick as I have been. I would do this again in a blink of an eye. I admit it, I still try foods that I know that is not good for me. I will go and get a chicken nugger happy meal every now and then. I eat bagles.........every day..........I have been to fat and I have been too skinny( like now) and I will take too skinny anyday. I am not healthy but I like the way I look. I am not haten up on my weight.............If I gain some cool. If I don't cool. And I know one of these old days my day is coming and I want be sick any more.......I will be struttin my stuff!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God bless all............. Lots of love Amy

Andrea, Hey there Miss Lady! My first confession (ha) is that I have been off the board for so long that I don't know what the hell you are talking about. I have appearently missed these posts completely. Confession 2......i DID gain weight over the summer when I went to Texas. I left for 3 days and came back 6 lbs heavier. I hogged out when I was there. It wasn****er weight because it took forever to get back off. The good news is that I learned from it. I was thinking to myself......."Im thin now....I can eat this stuff" When I got home and saw that scale.....something flipped. I now look at that junk and say to myself....."I'm thin now because I DONT eat that". Big difference. Confession 3.....I have battled feelings of anorexia post-op, but they seem to have disappeared now. About 5 to six months in when we all hit those first major plateaus........I was tempted to starve myself and in fact went without any food for 3 days once. That scared me that I was doing that to myself. Confession 4........Im addicted to liquid speed....COFFEE! I KNOW it has played a part in my weight loss. Is it healthy to drink this much coffee?.....hell no, but I do it anyway. It's healthier than being fat or smoking. So in the grand scheme of things.....I'm alright with it. That's how I justify it. Love ya girly girl! Channan

I have been gone, and do not know what you are talking about, but can only surmise... I have been battling feelings of anorexia, combined with overeating at times. I beat myself up, because I had my intestines rerouted, and don't ever want to go back. Last night my daughter showed me a picture of my presurgery self in a bathing suit. I felt so sick that I ever let myself get that way. Felt sick that I struggle with feelings of wanting to overeat vs. anorexia. Everyone's battle is different, Andrea, but the same thing remains. WE Will always have a battle, between our ears, and in our hearts. Thank you all for being here through that battle.And I am so sorry I am touch and go on here. Life has been funny.