thursday

thanks for those that shared - it really gave me some insight. ok- so the weird thing is that i weighed myself this morning and get this i was at 177 HA!!! so i think i needed to up my calories and just modified this crazy meal plan- cause this is what i did yesterday. breakfast 1 egg with cheese (weird thing- i was content about it- i was "full") meds/vitamin popsicle lunch mcdonald's- i had about 2 slices of the grilled chicken and couple bits of carrot and lettuces and picked out some cheese- was so good- ordered the bacon salad. afternoon snack cheese stick and 1/2 apple (no peels) popsicle supper few bites of the lettuce from lunch- stomach is hurting a little.. so about 20 minutes later i ened up having instead a cheese stick and grapefruit (about 3 slices of gf) snack- 3 small squares of HERSHEYS chocolate- craving chocolate... and also had a few pretzels (4 of them) and ANOTHER cheese stick... I ate so much today and was happy. exercise... walked 30 minutes outside.. then gardened outside for about an hour in the evening... did about 200 situps through the day. and leg lifts and butt lifts (stretching out lower back) dh was home last night too ;) i am happy because i had to re-evaluate myself. my whole thought about the surgery was to get to 165- i'm close. and to be a size 12- which i am in most clothing- some 10's even. i have a husband that LOVES me and loves my body- i have a son who loves me and i can keep up with and i love them both. i need to love myself- and be happy with what i did so far.. i will get to 165. i still might get to 160. i don't know if i'll ever see 150 or 140.. i still have triple D's and my legs are pure muscle- and muscle weights more- so i'm not a stick- i don't want to be. yes, would i love my stomach to be flat- yes... but i'll work on it.. it will never be flat flat- and i have to be ok with that.... ok... thanks everyone... much love to you jennifer