JULY 2007
darlin, let me tell you something i haven't told a whole lotta people.
i was 22 when i had my eldest son. i hoped and prayed and wished and planned for another after he was born. nothing seemed to be happening... we went to all the specialists and had ALL kinds of tests done laparoscopic this and that and cleveland clinic became a neighbor. they told us to give it up, basically - and we did. stopped trying. gave up. stopped the birth control.
and you know what happened, when we weren't even thinking about it and stopped stressing about it... i was blessed all of a sudden with twins. let me tell you it was a surprise.
the point is this - if we are meant to give birth once more, it'll happen, but if not it won't... and you know what? it doesn't matter.... we as women have this wonderful ability to be MOTHERS... to our own children or someone else's children. It really doesn't matter whether they were born from our wombs or not. What we crave is not the birth experience, but the motherhood experience and you can get that without the physical aspect of giving birth.
so many children out there without mothers. they need you.
i'm only telling you this because i tell the same thing to my sisters who are trying agin for their second round of kids. if it was meant to be, it was meant to be. if not, go find a child who needs a mother and be that mother. does it really matter whether she has your blood or not?
my goal is to not be sick. to be strong. to stand up for myself. And to have my ex boyfriend's best friend in my bed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Boy oh Boy does he make me weak in the kneese. OH I better stop I am at work getting a little warm thinking about him. WOO HOO!!!! I hope soon I can get up enough nerve to call him. I think he likes me too. I see him looking at me when I'm not looking. But I don't want to get shot down if I call him. He is single and I don't want to miss the chance.
Pam,
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