REALLY need encouragement!

I thought that by having my gallbladder out (almost 2 weeks ago) that it would help my constant nausea, vomitting and diarrhea. It hasn't. I can hardly eat anything, and when I do it usually makes me sick- no matter what it is. Cottage cheese used to be safe- not anymore. I am seeing my surgeon this Wednesday, but it's not like I have a lot of hope that any answers will be found, they haven't been so far even after MANY trips to the emergency room. I posted that I am below goal- and honestly, that was something that I felt good about- at the moment. Now I'm just scared. It's not good to lose so much weight simply from malnutrition. I never know when the vomitting or diarrhea is going to hit- so that severely limits what I can do in my life. My 5 year old does not understand why mommy is constantly laying in bed- and this has been going on for months. I am so depressed because I'm always sick. I'm separated from my husband and don't want to get back together--- and he's on the attack because of that. I used to feel strong but I don't anymore. I just feel like giving up- I have nothing to offer anyone, and I am lonely as hell.

Girlfriend, we are in the same boat. I am 10 months out and been sick the whole time. I am tired of throwing up everything. I am tired of feeling so bad. When I do eat. I am in bed for 45 mins. After. This is not living to me. I want to feel good. I felt good for like 3 weeks and then back to throwing up. I am now underweight. But only from being so sick. People don't understand and want to jump your crap for it. I pray for you and hope the best in the world for you. Because I'm with ya sista......... Amy

AMY!!! Girl! I'm worried about you too! I just checked out your profile and it says that you are down to 108 lbs! I know you have been sick sweetie, but I'm very concerned about your well being. It sounds like you are in contact with your surgeon (per your profile) so I won't "jump your crap" about that. Just know that you have a place to come when you are feeling crappy and you have a support system here to help you with the "head stuff". Good luck to you and I hope you find relief very soon, Channan PS~Nice lookin' kids ya got there!

I wish there was something I could do for you girlie!! I hate to hear that anyone is having a hard time. Are you able to keep down a protein drink or anything? I want to fly out there just to give you a BIG HUG!! Even though I can not relate to what you are going through, please know that I am here for you and praying for you as well. Love You!! Nickie

(((((((Michele)))))))) I am so sorry to hear about this-- There is a woman on the NY state board who had a great deal of problems and it took her surgeon a while to figure out what it was. Her name is Tavia- Go to the NY board and give her a shout. She found the most frustrating thing was that no one could figure out what the problem was. I so wish I could be there and give you a big hug. Just remember you have SOOO MUCH to offer people and you are such a great person. It is so easy for us to blame ourselves our denigrate ourselves -- but don't do it-- if all of us love you so much, you've got to be a great person. Hugs and love, Andrea

I hope that you are diagnosed and on all four (we used to require eight cylinders) real soon. Dave

Michele, Hun.....I am sending you a big fat bear hug! I just hate that this is happening to you! I wish I knew how to help. I don't understand why so many of us breeze through this surgery and some of us just really struggle. It doesn't seem fair and I'm so sorry that you are going through all of this. This is exactly what I was talking about the other day when I said that we need to tell the whole truth about this surgery. Technically.......a Dr. would consider you a success because you have done so well with your weight loss. You have had a difficult time, but most doctors would not consider them to be wls related complications (which they are). I think they deliberately dismiss complications like these to make this process seem less risky than it really is. I soooo hope there is an end in sight to this suffering. This is no way to go about life.........sick all the time, laying in bed, feeling awful. It looks like your physical ailments are taking a toll on your emotional health as well. It's hard for us who see this beautiful, intelligent, funny, compassionate lady to understand how you can feel so badly about yourself, but I know that your feelings are real and true. You are loved by so many people and you have so much self-worth that you are having trouble "seeing" through all of this yuckiness (for lack of a better word). I can hardly believe that you feel like you have nothing to offer anyone! Michele~You are a fantastic lady and I feel honored to call you my friend. I'm tearing up as I write this! I wish you could see yourself the way we see you! You would have a whole different perspective about yourself if you could. I guess this is just a process of elimination. Do your own research on this. Don't rely completely on the doctors to get it right. Ask lots of questions in lots of places. Post on every board that you can. There are others experiencing the same things that may have gotten some solid answers already. I love you Michele! Channan

Michelle I am so sorry to see you so sick. I wish I was there so I could give you a big old hug. It is really scaring me to see you having so many problems. Just know that we all love you and are praying for your recovery. Please try and get some liquid nutrition in. Maybe protien drinks? It's important you stay extra hydrated when dealing with vomiting and diarrhea. Get some IV fluids if you have to. I pray that your doctors figure this all out quickly. You say you have nothing to offer? Hogwash! You're smart, sexy, funny and sexy. Did I say sexy twice? Must be true! Your ex knows he blew a good thing and thats why he's on the attack. Here's one just for you beautiful. I'm so sorry that you're feeling blue And I really don't know what to do So I'll write you a rhyme To help pass the time And I hope, bring a smile to you. You're smart and you're sexy and fun And your heart is as warm as the Sun And to top off the whole With your beautiful soul You're a wonder when alls said and done So I'm praying for you to be well And I'm hoping that time will soon tell That your ailments will pass And you'll regain your sass to tell the old ex "Go to hell" I asked my cat to help me write this sonnet All he did was shed fur all upon it And the question is now Just what rhymes with "meow" I don't know, thats the end, doggoneit Take care babe and God bless Tim

Tim! You rock! C

To My friend Michelle: Sweet girl.. Pick yourself up.. open the front door, take a big breath... Go out side tonight and look at the stars.. think of each one of us that you have gotten to know so well over the past 10 months... think about how we care about you.. and find you to be beautiful, and funny, smart, and courageous.. breath us in tonight Michelle... I love you.. peace Mo IT IS GOING TO GET BETTER HONEY!!