emotions up and down

UGH- i was doing so well- then BAM today- my back is HURTING like crazy- syatic.. down the leg... over my hip BONE (I CAN FEEL MY HIP BONE).. but darn it... it hurts... i'm back down to 158 pounds.. i want plastics... my stomach is just GROSS.. my arms are nice.. my butt is fine.. my legs are fine.. it's this darn stomach.. yuck... jennifer

I have mixed emotions myself right now. I find myself secretly wishing that I wouldn't lose any more weight because the more I lose the more "issues" I have with skin. I had NO saggies until about 12-15 lbs ago. Then I think.......PS will take care of all of that! Then I think.......How the hell am I going to get my mits on 30 grand to pay for it all? I look at myself now and think...."Wow, I really abused my body when I was heavy." Now I'm paying the price. Sigh............... C