Why is SHE here?

Hi Nancy!!! I'm with you.... I need this train, if only to keep me from gaining 50 lbs!!! I've read on other sites where folks gain their weight back. The train helps me to stay within a range that is workable. I can see how this weight thing can get out of control very easily. This WLS does not guarantee permanent weight loss. It was a jump start on a journey that requires consistent quality controls to make sure we don't go back. There was a woman on Dr. Phil who gained back every last pound - over 100 lbs. I need this train... Nancy, I'm sorry to hear about the pressures you are under right now. I am so proud of the way you have handled not completely reverting back to food for comfort. I was an ice cream queen. Whenever things weren't quite right, I head for a pint of Haagen Daaz. By the time I got to the bottom of carton, I'd always feel better. If you ever need to just vent (even if it's not weight related), I'm here for you. You've got support.. it's not always about the weight... it's about rolling with the punches through the life journey too!!! Have a great day!! Denise

Please keep posting Nanette. This is what we are here for. This surgery doesn't fix our brains...gosh darnit...my brain is what needed fixed the most. Grazing is my downfall as well. If I stick to a plan and bring the right foods with me to work, I do okay...but, I have to plan. Good luck to us both! Lori 384/245/168

I don't know that I am different or feel differently yet. Maybe when I get closer to goal? See, I have been this weight...the weight I am now, several times over the years. Then I have bounced right back up again. I think perhaps when I get below 200 that will be more of a change and a weight that I haven't seen in many years. Maybe then I'll feel differently? I just don't know. Chele

Chele, I agree. I don't feel different yet. I 've been getting a lot of positive feedback from everyone...so much sometimes that I get embarassed. I wonder how everyone else sees me. I've noticed clothes are getting smaller but not my body. When I look in the mirror, I see myself. Nothing disgusting or nothing shameful....just me. No "SHE". I'm actually enjoying my weightloss journey. I don't focus too much on when I get to goal. I just focus on the now. April

Nice post. I'm down 123 lbs. but SHE is still 450 lbs. I look in the mirror and SHE is standing there blocking my new body. Everyone I see tells me I look so much smaller but SHE is in my head telling me that I really don't look that much different. SHE is 450 lbs, unhappy, unhealthy and wont go away. I wish SHE would so I can enjoy the new ME. Kay

Loris, Welcome back! I hope you get feeling better soon! Lori

SHE is killing me emotionally. These horrible thoughts of myself are constent. I feel fat, ugly, worthless and its all due to my weight. Ive not always been heavy. So I remember the thin days and these things never crossed my mind. The mirror is my enemy! And since the surgery so is the scale. I need to work on these issuse and tell the SHE in my head to go away. hugs, kristi

I'm working on a Poem for her, I'll share it with all of you soon.

{{{Sherri}}} Love ya girl. I too can eat pretty much anything. Not always a good thing. My scale says I'm holding at 145, although I think some day it's lying and I'm up a bit more than that. *sigh* I do get concerned that I will too start re-gaining. Even though Dr. R. said that most patients do re-gain some and then level off, I don't want to be one of them. Feel free to call me any time. I was just in your neck of the woods yesterday! Traci

Hey Celie, Its amazing how we look at ourselves and feel so worthless at times. I have lost weight, everybody tells ya that and still in the head its never ending. I dont know how much weight a person has to lose to feel different inside. I have always yoyo'd up and down mainly up. When I did lose down some I didnt stay there but two minutes and then on the joy ride of eatting back up.... I can see a lil change here and there but the head doesnt seem to want to except it. I want to be that more outgoing person that doesnt let others run over you and not be so sheltered feeling and cant except compliments very well. I sure give them easily but never had reason to recieve them that much. I have the most loving family and support me thru anything but they have no idea what its like in a 400lb body. I can tell them but never can they really understand.... So I guess we take it one day at a time and try to adjust to what we have been blessed to have. I have seen people have to pay out of pocket for this surgery and sell things and get even second mortgages for this. So whatever is the reason and how you recieved yours we should try hard to wake up each and ever day and feel very fortunate that we are where we are in our WLS journey. And somehow start loving ourselves more.... Hugs Marge