I NEED TO SEE THE SCALE MOVE!

Okay, I admit it.... I have been a slave to the scale for my entire life. And now that I have had this surgery, I feel entitled to see a weight loss each and every time I get on the scale. I don't have a scale in the house otherwise I would have thrown it out the window by now. I started my highest weight 6 months ago at 370- and presurgically 2 months ago I was 354. As of my last weigh in I was 327 which was exactly what I was two weeks before that. The scale just does not want to move. I know plataeaus happen, and obviously that is what is happening to me since from the starting point of my weight loss efforts to now I have actually lost closer to 50lbs. But I want bragging rights too..you know what I mean? I had this freaking surgery- scared myself half to death to do it ( and I don't regret it) and I want the bragging rights to be able to beat my chest and say I have lost 45 or 50 lbs since having the surgery. But that is not to be. And I know I need to get over it. Oddly enough since the surgery I have lost a surprising 30 inches off of my body- 7 inches in my hips alone. so I know it is working, but I still won't feel like I've been really successful until I see that darned scale move. ITs INSANITY!!!! What if there were no more scales and we had to dinf other ways to measure ourselves??? I can do that now. Inches off...looking better feeling better, blood pressure down, cholesterol down. What more could a person want? But I, insane woman that I am will continue to feel good or bad about myself and my progress by what that scale has to say. Today is my 2 month check up and I dread seeing what the scale says as if ..if I am still and this damnable plataeu then I will feel like some horrible kind of failure. Oh the mind games we put ourselves through... I also am having awful fluid retention in my legs and taking dr perscribed water pills to help- but its not doing much- so I really don't think the scale will move today. But I NEED TO SEE THE SCALE MOVE. So wish me luck that I can tame the scale slave within me and deal with what I know will be another monumental disappointment for me if once again the scale does not move. Thanks for reading as I ramble! Marcy

Girl I know what you mean!! I'm also two monts out and have lost about 45lbs and have been at a plateau for that past few weeks also. I had to remember that I have almost an entire year to get the majority of weight to lose. So all I can say is be patient and we will be okay. Even though I'm anxious like you because I've really started looking and feeling great. Leave the scale alone until you see your physician or you'll keep driving yourself nuts!!!! Take care Teneaha 7/16/04 316/300/288/275