Anyone craving 'no-no' foods???
Yes I am craving Dominos pizza something fierce! And i really want the Arby's chicken salad! I will have that when I can eat real foods again! It is chicken breast cut up with apples, grapes and pecans! I cannot wait, oh and i am craving more than anything some Shrimp egg foo young! I pray i will be able to eat chinese, i dont care if it have to chew it and spit it out to just get the flavor. My hubby nags me something fierce about what I do eat now, god forbid if he knew what i really wanted! I feel so weak when it comes to food, sometimes i sit and cry and cry because i cannot eat right now. I feel foolish saying it, but damn I wish i knew I would have been so upset over it, LOL!
Lots of stuff looks good to me, but I guess I am too scared about what would happen if I would try to eat something for me to try. I have heard
way too many war stories about hours and hours of vomiting. So far so
good for me. I don't think I have all the answers but I am trying really
hard to reason this thing out for myself. This surgery was drastic, and I
can't allow myself to think of this whole process as another diet- and then go into that mindset of feeling deprived and trying to find ways to
cheat on the diet, and then ultimately on myself. I have categorized
the food tastes I crave into categories. So when I see the salty
tomatoey cheesie pizza taco stuff on TV ( that looks way too good)
If I am feeling really hungry I make a cream of tomato soup- or have
something like V8 or something that is salty. If I crave something
sweet, I have a popsicle. Since these little pouches are so small I
figure it doesn't take too long to fill it up, and as long as I don't feel
hungry then the cravings don't last long. I also do alot of talking
to myself. Self I say....its not forever, and someday soon I will be
able to have pizza again, or tacos or whatever the goofy craving is.
So far that has worked for me. And I pray that it will continue to
work that way. I decided a few things about this whole process
First, I am not going to allow my happiness to be governed by numbers
on a scale and I am going to trust that the weight will come off if
I do all of the right things, and 2) I have spent virtually all of my adult
life making choices and being in charge of my food, and from now on
I am willing to give up being the decision maker. I am willing to stop
playing games for the promise that I will not have to spend the rest
of my life as a morbidly obese person. Right now, that sounds infinitely
better to me than taking the chance of sabatoging this effort for
myself. I know me, and the obese fat mind I have. And its a demon
I will have to fight within for the rest of my life. I DO have the intestinal
fortitude to outlive my cravings...and I will work hard to keep my
positive mental state and my eye on the long range goal. I hope this
helps.
OMG...Everytime the commercial comes on for KFC, my mouth starts salivating...lol. I just love their Chicken strips. I had a 1/2 of a small piece of pizza last night and it went down good. It took me a long time to eat it, but it tasted like gold. Its the first time I have really cheated. Actually I havent been hungry at all mostly, and alot of times its 3pm and I have forgotten to eat lunch. Today I ate some chicken for lunch and after about 4 bites I realized it wasnt gonna go down very well, and it hurt so bad, I had to make myself throw up, and I actually didnt eat again until dinner, so today all I really ate was my protien drink for Bfast, lunch came back up, snack 1/ of a protien bar, dinner about 10 bites of lentil soup. Oh and I had a tall Starbucks FF, SF Latte.
~Debra
Hey Debra! Good to see a post from you. And glad things are going well. I have my good days and bad days. So, you were able to eat a small piece of pizza, huh? I wonder if I could manage that. I'm sick of protein shakes and eggs. I see Dr. Suh again on the 10th. I hope he gives me the go ahead to begin adding different foods to my diet. I'd love a sandwich from Subway! I've had 2 Starbucks FF SF iced lattes. They are pretty good. Oh, and I've been having that pain when I drink plain water now. Is water still hurting you?
Merritt
I only have 2 cravings and one is to chug a big glass of ice cold milk. (I've become lactose intolerant after surgery) pre-op I would drink about a half gallon of milk every 2-3 days by myself. I miss it so much. The only other thing is Ben and Jerrys Oatmeal Cookie Chun**** cream. I miss that so much too! I tried pizza topping the other night and I got diarrhea from it I think cuz it was too greasy. Now the thought makes me ill. I just don't seem to have any appetite at all. All I want to do is drink like never before! I've been on regular foods for almost 2 weeks now and everything seems to be doing good going down but the last couple days I've been feeling just kinda icky after I eat. Scrambled eggs don't sit well at all with me though. Weird.
I want my Diet Coke back (was addicted before). Also, I went with my parents to dinner the other night at the bar b Q place. I really wanted some of that!!! I am just starting though and know anything else would make me really sick, so that has been a pretty good diversion.
Jules
P.S. Glad to know you can suck on Cheetos - important info for me to know as time progresses .
I haven't had any real trouble with cravings. Well, not with junk food anyway. Mostly, my cravings came during the liquid phase when I wanted to chew ANY flavor I could. Of course, last night, I dreamed that I was stuffing my face with all kinds of junk, and I woke up thinking "Ooh...I'll have some of this, and some of this." Then I realized it was head hunger talking, so I shut my brain up and went back to sleep. Thankfully, I am getting to the point where I can add more variety to my day. In about three weeks, I will be able to eat just about anything except beef and pork (in steak form, I think).
I ordered dominos for my kids the other night and I was freaking salivating the whole time! We're talking having to swallow every two or three seconds to keep the drool from rolling out of my mouth salivating. I want pizza sooooooo sooooooo bad, haha. I ended up having to hide out in my bedroom until they threw the box away. I was ready to dive head first into it the box and plow.
My problem is that I am having such an easy time handling ANYTHING I eat, I feel like I can eat it all and be okay. Faulty thinking, I know, and something I won't act on. But, it's driving me a little bonkers. I'll be glad when school starts so I can have something to occupy my mind with.
Shannon